let's dance(:

2006-06-14T08:01:00.000-07:00

SHUTDOWN!

RELINK! (:

2006-06-12T23:11:00.000-07:00

im suddenly feeling very annoyed . dont ask me why, I donno why.

sigh. okay. not that I'm annoyed for nth. I just miss fiftytl! dah berapa lama sehyy I never see hide nor hair of that idiot. ARHH):

anw. let's forget about that ~~moron~~

I feel like posting pics. not of me though. duh! I can do that on friendster. and it's not like I look so flattering in my pictures anyway. =.=

I'm going to TIOMAN! so if you haven't already figured it out, i'm DAMN excited! :DD I can dive I can snorkel I can play on the beach I can get another sunburn I can scream like a madwoman for all anybody cares I can see BLUE BLUE BLUE water I can spend time with my bestest bestest cousin I can have fun AHH! this is SOSOSOSOSOSO cool!!

and by the way. you know torres right! fernando torres! from SPAIN! spain world cup team!! he's damn hot! haha. I can't wait to see him in action. apparently he's really good. i dont know, is he??

I want to see england get their asses kicked. hehehe.. I just dont like them lah. so ego know. nyeheh. and I know I said I want brazil to win. i dont. I want GERMANY to win now. heh. yes I know im fickle. (:

I LOVE PINK! haha x) I dowanna be a stupid girl!! (:

and another thing. i crush nick. nick as in so you think you can dance nick! haha. no seriously. if he was like my age I'd so crush him please d: klah I supported blake all along actually. but then change to nick because blake dance very sissy lah. I love his perf with melody though. and nick gave his all. until he became better than jamile in his own specialty. (: sigh. nickkkk nick. ^^ <3

im not annoyed anymore (:

okay nth more to say bye

2006-06-10T19:41:00.000-07:00

sheesh. what's up with me man. I just played piano and I couldn't play as well as I normally do. and I thought it was okay at first but then my piano teacher said it sucked. (she more or less said that) and I spent like half and hour on the same two stupid pages and it still didnt work!! have I lost my touch or something?? sheeshhhhhh.

something feels different with these fingers of mine. :/I can't type as smoothly as I used to either. and I cant move them over the piano keys as nicely as I could last time. it's not like Im showing off or anything, but seriously. I thought I was good at piano. apparently not. -.-

maybe it's because I'm playing very mechanically. it's like, this finger goes here. no other finger can go there. it's not this note here, it's this note. this is my freakin exam piece I have to get at least a merit. no less or I die. then the music is like.. noise. you know, it's not music anymore. it's just really a whole mess of notes everywhere and it's hurting my ears.

haha long gone are the days when I could even hope of a distinction. the last time was when I was in grade 5 or something. two years ago. but that was for theory I think. my only distinction for practical was in grade 1 and 2. duh. that was so easy. -.-

so if you've no idea what I'm talking about, don't worry, because I posted this thing without a slightest notion of what I'm going to write about. I guess I was just scared that I wont be able to play music as a relaxation anymore. that's scary . I don't know how, but yea, it is.

2006-06-10T08:51:00.000-07:00

sigh. I myself cant STAND the sight of my own blog. maybe I should switch to lj soon. -.- that way I wont have to worry my ass over layouts. urgh. eh but lj's boring lah.

I am dead bored okay. sigh.

okay and I just saw the SIZE of michael jordan's....................................................... it's HUGE! it's DAMN BIG! it's like WHOA! it's gianormous!! really!! oh i'm talking about his HOUSE! KEKEKE I GOTCHA THERE, DIDN'T I?! right right?? hahahaha suckas!!! lol. ah screw this.

and and and mariah carey sucks! she fckin dresses up to WALK her DOG pls. ARGH! what's wrong with her? if she had like shakira's body or sth never mind ah but she's damn gemuk right!! not sekSY dok!! sekSA!!

and no! im not in a bitchin mood and I'm NOT surfing some gossip website or sth. I just know it. hahaha. ala no lah. I came across this website which had reallllyyy weird pics. it's called abstract photography. I guess? haha actually no it isnt. I just came up with that myself because I don't know what else to call it. ><

what else do I blog about? hmmmmm. oh yah. I went sci centre today to catch that dino exhibition that's on. my bro wanted to so dad gladly indulged. yep. and they had this madagascar hissing cockroaches as one of their exhibits. it was one whole family lah. then some guy came over. he was chinese but SO trying to fake this american accent. I heard him say this.

-comes over-
-stares at cockroaches-
*friend comes over*
FAKEguy: hey check it out. madaGAScoar hissiien roaches dewddde!
friend: -babbles- (I couldn't hear a single thing)
FAKEguy: that one's FUCKIN big man! hey they're alive! they're FUCKIN alive!!
me: -stares- (what the heck.. )
FAKEguy: -looks at me-
me: o.0
FAKEguy: -turns away-

eeyer!!!!! damn step!! it was super unnatural! he might as well have been from acsi or sth. I mean he looked like an acs kinda guy. im not sayin acs guys all have fake accents. imad will kill me or sth. haha. just that he looked damn cheena but was tryin to fake an accent. lerr. unbearable-ness.

yah but it was kinda fun to give him that 0.o kinda look. haha. sucka!

I shd stop sayin that word. I feel so mean everytime I say it. but it's like fun to say it. d:

okay so let's talk about more about what happened today. tuition first thing in the morning. then off to french class. which was very slack. adam kept trailing me everywhere lah. lerr. just because enzo was playing catching with him. =.= and yah, adam is like 8 years old. duh! which idiot with self-respect would follow a girl ard like that?? haha ><

so after that went to science centre. yupyup. and my bro and me took the simulator. waahhh wait for like 10 000 hours then can get in. skali the ride was only like 5 minutes =.=" LOSER LAH! thought it would be like 10 minutes... baru ader kick.. ni 5 minit jerr.. kentalan beb.. d:

yah then afters we went home. where we've been since then. sigh.

okay it's quite late. I wanna sleep! bye world.

2006-06-09T01:21:00.000-07:00

bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau kenangan
yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah
- kenangan terindah
samsons

whoahh I love that song! (: its so sweeeeeet. ): did you see the videooo?? i think the last part is damn sweet. but stupid girl lah. she go and break with him then that stupid old guy become her man?? sungguh logic ah. -.- sigh. I was watching the vid on youtube and I played it again and again and again like a billion times over >.<

ee how to make the font size bigger? so small.

oh you know WHO made it to the NUMBER ONE spot on pop inc's top 10 music vids list?? SOS!!!!!!! by RIHANNA!!!!!! WHAT THE FCK!!!!! THAT SONG FRICKIN SUCKS!!!!!!!!! rihanna shouldnt even BE on the list pls -.- and the bubbling under vid was BUTTONS?! by pcd?!?! and no.9 was control myself by LL cool J feat Jlo I think. wtf. eeee what's becoming of this world. can I ship myself off to another planet with all my friends... like mars maybe..

and guess what! I watched DISCOVERY CHANNEL today! WHOAH! hey, it IS a big deal. I only ever watch mtv or sth. but today mtv ask pink was on, and I kinda find pink repulsive, so my bro came into posession of the remote control! and ~~like the nerd he is~~ he decided to watch animal face-off on discovery channel. ><

ooh guess what I'm eating! I'm eating. KAYA BREAD! :D this reminds me of kopitiam breakfasts. I just had one two days ago. but I still want another one. I miss half-boiled eggs lorh. and I wish they could like give people free kaya toast or something. its damn nice right?! ><

okay I'm bored. can you tell? -.-

I shall go find sth more productive to do.

2006-06-07T03:22:00.000-07:00

SHEESH!

so CUTE! hahahahahaha d:

I cant stop grinning!!! hahahaha

SIGH. dahlingggg dahlinggggg.......

if you only KNEW.....

hahahahaha

xP

2006-06-06T21:26:00.000-07:00

YELLOW!

i meant hello -.-

you know how listening to songs sometimes makes you.. have weird expressions on your face? how to deal by frankie j is one of them. :s and burn by usher. quite outdated songs, and certainly NOT the type of songs that a COOL girl like ME (d:) should be listening to. but yeah, they're nice what 0.o

anyway yours truly just got back from and EYE checkup! at nuh! ah sheesh, it wasn't that exciting. it was quite routine actually. duh. lol. I dont have to change my specs! (: but for some reason I find it easier to see when I lift my head in the air and look down my nose. -.- GREAT! haha.

hachiem. I just sneezed.

okay ><>< I ate chocolate crunch while my bro ate sticky chewy chocolate. and my parents shared a FREE firehouse birthday! (:

might SOUND like a wonderfully cheery family moment, but no. they had to insert parts about me having to work my butt off this year. SHEESH! I know! it's not like I'm not even trying -.-

yah but it was a good night! x) PLUS it was 060606!

and if you haven't seen my tagboard (yes it's still there, if you click on the last box. you just have to wait a while for it get loaded(:) I AM GOING ON HOLIDAY! :D to m'sia. heh. 19-21. yupyup. ajer lah. so it isn't such a big deal. we might be going langkawi. we're still not sure, coz we're taking free and easy so we don't need travel agents. ^^

I wanna play ps2! bye! :D

2006-06-05T18:26:00.000-07:00

eeee! gross! GUYS ARE GROSS. duh.

YUCK LAH EEEE!!!!!!!

-spits- EWWWWWW!!

bfdshfdosuhcxvnBLEGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

okay dah ckp

2006-06-05T17:52:00.000-07:00

I made history today! I MADE HISTORY! dude, this is so fetch. hah. fetch isnt cool any more lah eh. what's the new word uh? I bet you dont know kay! x) let me have a shot! let me have a shot!! is it.. fly? is it.. uhh.. word? is it... oh blegh. I don't know. WHY don't I know? you must tell me WHY? oh but WHY?! I can't show myself in public anymore.. what a disgrace! -continues groaning- (much to public's annoyance d:)

kekeke >.< x)

wanna know WHY? why I made history I mean? wanna know wanna know wanna know??! course ya do. it's not like you have a choice anyways.

I BOUGH A SHOCKING PINK TEE! -collective gasp- haha. I never thought I'd buy sth pink for casual wear okay! but here I am! once again! i've fallen into pieces! can't deny it can't pretend! just -- woops. -rewind- here I am! I bought a pink tee for 11 bucks! dude... ... i was gonna say something but now I forgot what it was. SEE LAH it's all your fault! HUMPH(rey)! doesnt matter. "SOMETHING!" lol >.<

evidently I am high. hm. ohwell. high is good. low is bad. hi-LO is even worse. I mean, what did you wanna say hi to jLO for? she's like... with marc antony isnt she? stay away from married women, boys. just.. uhh.. make sure you continue masturbating over people like anna nicole smith and.. whatshername? paula anderson! ohwait. paula has kid right? kid rock I mean. HAH HAH HAH xD

yknow what?! I'm digressing. so not cool. ewh.

so let's get back to the topic. pink tee=bimbo wannabe!! or pink tee= geek in the pink.. I'm thinkin... GEEK! but uhh... just in case people ask. I said... umm... I dunno just make up something cool, but I didn't say geek alright?

this pretending thing is getting annoying. let's drop the act. -drops-

I WATCHED XMEN THE LAST STAND! yest. can't miss it, it's DAMN cool! although I'm still sore over the fact that angel was in so little scenes. aiyah but with a mug like that I'll bet we'll see more of him soon. HEHE. 3 people died btw. in the movie, I mean. all 3 were 3 main chtrs. but I rly dont think they died. bcoz I've read the xmen comics. they didnt. but I dunno they could just choose to tweak the story a little. angel's wings are damn cool ah. and the sfx is not like WOW! kinda WOW WOW! it's just, WOW! yknow? >.< and there might be an xmen4. I sure hope so. see the last scene, you'll know why hehe. and angel might turn evil :/ phoenix could turn good tho. I dont think. erh. nemind hehe (:

oh and I bumped into hafiz and friends at the cinema! yknow I should really bump into more girls. then I could actually be happy to see them. but NO,no. even if I come from a girls' school. I bump into guys more often that girls. LERR. -.-

haha I sound so ticked off by it. I'm not lah. not much anyway haha klah joking jer sheesh.. I just dont understand. it makes perfect sense to keep bumping into girls, but evidently this is not to be. -.-

why am I even thinking bout this, nvm.

k lah, it's quite late aready. bye! and make sure you watch xmen3! if not I'll get Jack the Ripper to kick your butt to china! (: and VOTE FOR TWOHILL! I'm probably stating the obvious but who cares PAUL TWOHILL ROCKS! *hunks are pretty what!!* haha x)

ohoh! one last thing, I promise I promise! random convo;

lil bro: eh this is the more or less pile?
me: huh what? molest??
lil bro: noooooo! more or less pile??
me: less lah less lah. ee lesbian pile...
lil bro: giler babi seh you..
me: wah thanks ah.

>.< we were playing speed u see. and ah. long story. I won anws! (: but yah I promised to end so bye! this time its for REAL huahua kbye! :D

2006-06-03T18:49:00.000-07:00

YO!

hm. suck lah. sunday morning. and Ive got nothing better to do. than blog. like, ewh.

okay anyways. this is probably way overdue, but PAUL TWOHILL ROCKS! haha but I didnt really have to say that, since it's like an unspeakable statement or something. haha(:

nothing much has been happening. when's the last time I blogged? hrm. nevermind. I'll just say what I can remember of friday and yesterday.

friday was rj drama. :s nothing spectacular... heh. yah. then I met.. kak nar! and kak nadz! haha. my two favourite-est seniors in the whole wide world! nyeheh. no lah. and I told kak nar STUFF d: ! and it feels so good to tell someone stuff. hurhur. yeah.

so apparently, j1s have to put up a drama in jc? hm. I dowan to act leh. dowandowan. I mean its possible right? right! not all the seniors acted anyway what. if my eyesight hasnt failed me d: heh.

sigh. kak nadz says jc is tough. okay she didnt say that. i just inferred. she said you really have to work your butt off and study every night in prep for the 'a's.. it sounds scary.. and here I am struggling to keep up with life at an IP school -.- ergh.

anws. I met dian and mary and izzah and am at bishan mrt. they were late! HRMPH. haha. the thing is, the stupid taxi drivers were being bitches. like, ewh. the first taxi man said "oh 5 people cannotcannot.." and shooed us out the taxi. and so did the SECOND taxi man! oh COOL. seriously. and we were alrd super late.

so we walked/briskwalked/halfrun/jogged whatever to rjc. until am and dian's slippers malfunctioned. hoho. and they hobbling all the way to rj and screaming everywhere coz their slippers kept coming off haha. >< but lucky there were people we could tail who were also late. yah.

and blabla and the show began! yah, well it wasnt so simple. but nevermind. kekeke. but paiseh aku jerr..

anyway i like the turban guy from the titian! haha. jubah designer kwakwa ><

and saturday? french class. not much happend. yah. and haziq came to encik's hse! hehe.

OKAY FINE I HAVE TO GO MY MUM'S NAGGING BYE!!!!!

2006-06-01T00:33:00.000-07:00

YO!

we got interim reports tday. im not satisfied. >< but for the moment being, all I can say is that it might be a pathetic gpa but it's a start. (: it's like my highest score, but that's precisely why Im not saying it here. it DOES suck, okay. but yah. I improved. ^^

speaking of which. I might be changing my blogskin soon. its kinda pathetic now. HEH. ><

im bored :/ what the heck is a girl supposed to be when it's raining and she's stuck at home?? yes, it's raining. I mean I love the smell of rain and all that. but I hate it when it rains and I'm stuck somewhere where I have to close all the windows. sometimes it feels nice to stand somewhere and watch the rain and feel the wind against your face. (:

eh I'm beginning to hate anonymous people. whassamatter, dont have an identity?? x) LOSERS. ergh. so um. unless your name is something like "IDIOT bin GUNDU" or something please state your names (: simple enough right? YES! goody. -.-

it's your turn to cry baby cry
don't cry no more
coz every tear that flows falls into the ocean
and rises to the sky
and then the rain will come
right before the sun shines
- CRY baby CRY! // santana

haha oops I think I made a mistake. nyeheh. cry baby cry's by santana apparently? I dont know. confuse! ah! okay anw yknow what. the video still rocks. I dont give a heck who it's by. I just know it's a helluva good song hehehe. (:

andandand! you know. (no you dont coz I havent told you xd) my dad got the inspiration from my name from joe satriani! haha. he said satriani used to be one of his fave artists last time. so he consulted this family friend who happens to be an ustat. arwah ustat babu sahib I think. ><><

I SHALL BE EGO. hehe. let's see. places/things/whatever in the world with NICE UNIQUE names like mine.. seriously.. their names are like.. WOW... damn nice!!

1) SANTRIAN beach! in bali haha I nearly went there the last time I went to indonesia kay. imagine the SHOCK when my dad saw "santrian beach" on the map! haha
2) SANTORINI beach! in greece. I THINK there's such a place! SO RAD! haha. it was one of the locations for "the sisterhood of the travelling pants" okay.
3) SATRIA! the proton car! haha okay lah it isnt like it's damn nice lah. but it's a racing car model I think. damn cool right??! um DUH xD
4) joe satriani! he's a damn cool guitar player or something. in my dad's time. >< EH it's still a big deal okay wahlau -punches your face-

okay Im getting bored. not to mention the fact that being egoistic is SO damn tiring. hm. I wonder how people like bush and all that with egos bigger than the size of their own country survive with such gianormous egos on their consciences every day. it's worse than being atlas okay ><>< haha okay Im SO not exaggerating, but that's okay. NYEHEH xD

oh GOD. she did it AGAIN! she thinks she's the only one in the whole wide frickin world who has the right to be pissed. GUESS WHO LAH. bloody hell man. -.- and stop blaming me for everything!! LERR. I mean I admit I did wrong but why are you scolding me and only me?! wtf ah. SHEESH! -.-

sigh. fights fights fights. what the heck lah. I dont like fights. :/

oh another great song. (:

don't let nobody tell you your life is over
be every colour that you are
into the rush now
you don't have to know how
know it all before you try
- rush // aly&aj

yay! okay it's not exactly a brand new song. but yah! I heard it a long time ago but I didnt know how to search for the mp3 or the video online. until youtube came along.

i am NOT slow! shut up! doofus. -.-

okay bye

2006-05-30T01:04:00.000-07:00

it's your turn to CRY baby CRY!! nyahahs. it's up to you how you want to interpret it. I was just singing the sean paul feat. carlos santana song! (: its like my new fave song. heh.

ohoh I love this part. "baby.. [dont call me baby!]" haha so true. a girl aint nobody's toy, boy. get that up your fat ass and try to understand it. haha. eh I feel poser now.

this is a pic of him. darn cute right! it was about the closest (and clearest) pic I could find of him and his new cut. coolios sia. (: he looks reinvented, somehow. haha did he get a new stylist or sth? i just realized how byootiful his eyes are. lol.

ooh ooh! ashley parker angel! isnt it such a cool name! x) anw. he has a song, let you go. damn nice check it out dudes. and used to be from o-town right? wasnt that a boyband -.-

god I just realized how much bsb sucks. so whiny lah. and the lyrics dont make sense.

Tell me why
why what?
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
huh??
Tell me why
WHY WHAT??
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
you havent finish your question!!
Tell me why
maybe I WOULD, if youd actually finish your question -.-
I never wanna hear you say
you're so bossy.
I want it that way
I wont say that. makes me sound spoilt.

okok. enough aready. buaiz

2006-05-29T08:57:00.000-07:00

sigh.

people are really screwy you know that? i guess you do right?

some people. um I wonder who. -.-

and I mean screwwwwy. screwyscrewyscrewyscrewyscrewyscrewy you hear me? with a capital S!
I dont just mean hotluvv. go figure. this involves actual ~~friends~~ notanymore I guess? i dont know lah okay.

so. in a desperate attempt to cheer myself up and kick my own ass and tell myself not to feel like a stupid piece of shit.

i WONT care what they think. i wont. I never really have anyway. whats the diff if I really become indifferent now? and it's not like I even know them -.- in some cases. 0.o

people like _____ who have such unpacked schedules think the whole world is so free. and that everyone can juggle exams and another thing at the same time. NEWS FLASH?! not everyone's as smart as you, ass. it's just too bad if other people cant work as speedily and efficiently as you. when you're in a group, you wait. you understand your group member's capabilities and limits. you COOPERATE. you UNDERSTAND when things go abit off course. you cant expect to always be placed with the same grp members every time, or those you can work really well with. in fact that kinda rarely happens in the real working world doesnt it? LEARN to understand, people, LEARN! AGH! it's called E frickin Q!! i never really believed in this generalisation but when it comes to you and you, high IQ=low EQ

bloody hell

I might as well say this now. I might look quiet and all that shit. make your own judgements after you've gotten to know me, we all do. make judgements about people, I mean. but. try not to get me pissed okay? seriously when I get pissed I lose all sanity. the gates of Hell break open. I say the first thing that comes to my mind and it's often not a pretty thought. at all. I pretty much dont care whatever the fck you think about me when Im pissed. I just care about getting my point across, by whichever means possible, okay? just ask my brother. he's seen me really pissed a LOT of times. so have my parents. last year there was this time when I was pissed and no one came close to me for that whole week. im serious, dont. piss me off.

its not like im boasting or anything, if that's what you're thinking, because it aint such a great thing to be boasting about in the first place. usually what comes after "pissed" is "dejected". and that feeling's even worse than being pissed. at least being pissed is like that line has snapped and you're boiling inside. being dejected and sad means feeling like a complete moron who has no use to the world whatsoever. and snapping at that the people you love, and not being able to give a definite answer when they ask what's wrong. and then glaring at them when all they're trying to do is HELP. it feels shitty.

and dont tell me youve never felt that before. everyone feels dejected at some point. so maybe you're so "hardy" that youve never felt that. ever. but you will. there's no telling when. but that time will come.

no one's really truly unbreakable. at this age, especially and definitely.

2006-05-28T21:54:00.000-07:00

GREAT WEEK, THIS HAS BEEN.

SO

SO

SO

FRICKIN

GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got my phone taken away from me, my comp, and no tv. for the ENTIRE frickin june hols!!! wahlao.

by my dad, who else?

FFFFF

AHHHH

okay no, wait, correction. LAST WEEK. not this week. though it probably wouldnt make any diff. because this week we're getting back midyear reports. GREAT. my marks are REAL good, dont you know?? REAL REAL GOOD..

and who the heck is "h0tluVv"??? wait I dont give a damn. if you think I was referring to ARIF that last post or whatever, you're seriously disillusioned. I wasnt even referring to arif!!! for your information, I KINDA dont like him anymore?! kinda. JUST. KINDA. :x think what you like lah okay?! I dont give a damn anymore.

wonderful mood im in. JUST WONDERFUL.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i need to go out. NOW. NOWNOW! i need to scream and pull my hair out and say fuck and whatever shit.

I AM SO PISSED! SO FRICKIN PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and I want to cry. if that's even remotely possible any more. ):

2006-05-25T11:18:00.000-07:00

You scored as Diesel.

Diesel

100%

Dior

75%

Abercrombie & Fitch

50%

Gucci

42%

Burberry

42%

Anna Sui

42%

Tommy Hilfiger

42%

Louis Vuitton

33%

DKNY

17%

Chanel

What Designer Brand Are You?
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huahua okay! im such a true minah. lol ><

You scored as Emo. Your Totaly Emo!

Emo

60%

Skater

55%

Prepy

55%

Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev

45%

Goth

35%

Rocker, Mosher

35%

Trendy

25%

What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy Ect
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eh I dont even know what's hawthorne heights lorh. whats that??? 0.o

You scored as Ghetto gangsta.

Ghetto gangsta

44%

Stoner

44%

Goth

38%

Punk/Rebel

31%

Loner

31%

Drama nerd

31%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

25%

Geek

25%

What's Your High School Stereotype?
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stoner yupp definitely. GHETTO GANGSTA?! haha waddaheck?? -.-

2006-05-25T10:37:00.000-07:00

heyy im blogging before I sleep. its currently 1:34 am. cool right? lol anyway I was doing lit pt lah. (: it's done! DONE! d-0-n-e! DONE! okay think you get the pt

im trying to make as little noise as possible when I type. but I type noisily lah. haha.

eh friendster changed again? wahlau for what? so annoying.

JUST LIKE TEXT BOXES WAHPIANG DAMN IRRITATING OKAY =.= resize abit and it disappears to overlap over the text box. then must move it down again. then it disappears again. ahh! I spent like 10 minutes or more trying to align the stupid text boxes again and again!! super frustrating!! rarh

yay i should go sleep now.

no more worries this weekend!

this weekend.

dont talk about next weekend ke aper lah. that one different story liao. I have it planned! huahua

- do MATHS
- bio pt (?!)
- study HIST
- malay pt (!!!)

that's the main things ah. you know what. ni pt-pt sumerr kan. aku dah numb ah. mcm tkder feeling gitu. dpt jerr mcm.. ah ok lah pt.. buatlah buat apaper lah.. not as in like.. do anyhow lahh. but like. let me demonstrate -looks at pt paper- -raises an eyebrow- -shrugs- -puts into file- -does- -submits- DONE so mechanical. as in. yea. aiyerr. like no fun liddat tau. not that they've ever been quite fun. but alah I cant articulate lah hehe ><

I want to pee ><

eh do I talk damn fast? I ask my bro he say yah. my parents say yah also. they say mine is like this deadly combo. or sth. bcoz my voice soft (ye ke??? huahua >< eh tht only shows im gentle kay wahaha xd) and then I talk damn fast so my words are like joined together. not slurred. just like. rskbdcksg. then they're like huh? what???

sigh I rmb that purple passion joke huahua>< so lameeeeeee

OH IM GOING AWAY(: 19-23 june! alah to malaysia onie. it's probably pulau redang or langkawi. which one's better ah? I onie know if the sea there got blueblue karer den I want ><><>< im sure youd be so smart kan?

k lah Im so not crapping seh. dodol. buaiz

iie miishh hieeem. haishhhh. <3a*i*

and Im perfectly capable of spelling pls. I didnt misspell :x eh jgn maen maen arrr! pri sch aku tk pernah pun fail spelling ke dictation ke mental sums ke.. KEKEKE dude! im not showing off! it's called HIGH SELF ESTEEM huahua go adamkhoo camp and you'll know what Im talking about. kan kan?! kan?!YES OKAY screw you man huahua ><

k bye

2006-05-25T00:09:00.000-07:00

fuck.

fuckity fuck.

I feel like retracting back the part about my possibly getting 3.sth. That's not even a probability because my marks are like 60sth. wahlau.

trust me to start to believe. and then get crushed.

chem eoi today. as you know. wahlau fuck man I screwed up like shit. I didnt know a lot of questions. I cant believe this!! I saw the first few questions then I didnt know how to answer then I just totally blanked out. wahlau. unfair! the whole world said it was super easy, and some people said that without even studying. but dammit it was FUCKIN HARD! grawr. at least for me it was. SIGH. :/

maybe 312 just isnt made for chem. maybe I'm just not made for chem. dammit. whatever lah.

I still want an A for maths.

she fuckin hates me please. wahlau. why? just because my gpa is damn kental right? wahlau. trust someone like her to be so.. judgemental. I dont know. she doesnt even.. ah shit lah whatever lah. I dont wanna know, I dont care either. it isn't like her acceptance is so crucial to my life right now. screw her, that's the word. really really SCREW her.

what's more crucial. is my frickin gpa. frickin foof! I dont want a limited choice of combis in jc. I dont even want jc. sigh.

it's so easy to feel small here. you can like feel so driven one time and then the next, you get damn demotivated coz someone else is already there, where you aspire to be, and they're not even trying.

sometimes it's damn unfair.

on the other hand, you could just not give a damn about all these frickin smart people of the world. and just do your own thing. it takes a lot of pizazz though. heh. I dont know how to spell. liyana (mahirah) says hi

may you.. get a nicer gpa than me.

what a non-vulgar post. NOT vulgar. at all. =.=

2006-05-24T02:16:00.000-07:00

today was like.. ew. like, bleck, all that. grarh.

okay.

so we got back a LOT a LOT of results today. of course im not gonna put down every single one of them here lah. I just think I did okay. as in, I think I improved (according to yu xin ><) but it's still not satisfactory. I won't be satisfied until I've really decided that I've really worked and studied my butt off the night before the exam and all that.

so for percentage commitment this year, i'll give myself.. 65%? okay 63. 62. whatever. somewhere around there. yeah. last year it was kinda less. I think it was like 58% or something. so far, I haven't failed anything yet, which is GOOD, considering my grades these last two years.

apparently my teachers said I improved last year. erh, my foot? I deproved, hello?! I wonder what they'll say about me this year. sigh.

I know exactly what I want for my eoy gpa. It's quite a far cry from my last year's eoy gpa, but I can DO THIS. i know i can.

heyy, my teachers keep giving the same comments to my parents every year. I can do it, but I just push myself harder. goddammit, my poor parents will be so sick of hearing the same bloody comments every time there's an spm. I'll be plagued by it too.

THIS YEAR IS GONNA BE DIFFERENT. im gonna prove myself. keke >:)

hell, if she thinks im just another sidestreet dumbass, im gonna PROVE. HER. WRONG. muahaha(:

eh you should have seen my notebook convo with yu xin ah. it was damn. i dunno. there's a word for it. of course there is, what the heck. I just don't know what kekeke. but you know what, I think I wouldn't have let you seen it anyways kwakwakwa d: okay Ill give you a snippet

yu xin : eh I should be more sad than u lah (...)
ani : but I've been getting lousy grades all my life lah :/
yu xin : but this year you improved what. should get more than 3.0
ani : do you reaaally think I can get like 3.1 or sth???
yu xin : -nods vigorously- can be more than that what.. my grades last year were like that, then I got like 3.sth.
ani : really ah?
yu xin : yah yah!
ani : ... ... ><

getting 3.0 and above means a great deal to me. I don't care if you freakos out there are already getting like 3.6 or sth while Im still stumbling behind. but yea.

so there's hope for a 3.sth gpa! see, I told you. THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE! :D

and you know what. the best indicator (:O chem!!!) is your teachers. you can tell how well you did and how good they think you can do just by looking at them. if you've screwed like shit, you can tell, because they'll look uneasy and unsatisfied with you and all that. but if you've done alright, they won't treat you any less than they treat others.

and guess what? it looks good so far!

but GRARH i want A for maths! can! I swear I can! I'll be really happy if I get A for maths! because I know I can! if I put in like 100% effort I CANN!

wow this year is so different from last and last last year.. something just feels different. yeah baby! huahua! ;)

one last thing. WHYYYYYY AM I STILL SITTING IN FRONT?!?!?!?!?! IM NOT THAT SHORT, DAMN IT!

it just means one thing. Im not paying full attention ><

which is something I WILL change next semester

OKAY!

WHOOPDEEDOO! huahua ;)

2006-05-21T07:06:00.000-07:00

ew. that last post was like. EW. just ew! -.- to think I go into such deep thought about things. and all because of one stupid guy. O.o I meant what I said about the hanging on part. I never knew it was there. I find that so cool (: because really, all along. I've been thinking that I dont have what it takes. to be as good as everyone else is. ><

okay. enough emo-ness. let's talk about today. OH SUGARHONEY ICED TEA. kwang3. today. was. BAD. REAL. BAD. ): to start off with, my parents weren't in a very good mood in the first place. so they snapped quite easily. and then my bro just had to try and grab my phone from me. and my phone got confiscated. momentarily. I got it back lah.

I ponned madrasah. sorry. I hope he didnt come, what the hell.

and then. oh I woke up late. and I bathed at like 11 heh ><><>< and then it was off to the wkshp.

okay. so the plan was to go to nlb after my wkshp thing, to do lit pt with mary. but by the time my wkshp ended she'd alrd gone. so nemind la. and then my parents got so pissed off you know! wahlau. I mean, they were tired, I understand that. but AIYERR. my dad actually went like "go to hell, do you think we're your servants or something, must send you everywhere?" hello, it's not like I'm not thankful that you're sending me there, but I would've gone on my own anyways. that was the FIRST thing he said to me after I stepped into the car. kind of had a DAMPENING effect on thing, right?! KIND OF only. :x he said it like I just told them to drive halfway across the world, when all I'd said was the plan was off. aiyoh!

so then we went to Great World City. the place of the posh. O.o to eat at deli. I brought whatever I found on the net with me okay. I was trying to just forget about it and control myself and all that stuff. it would've worked. if my idiot bro could have just left me alone to just shut up and concentrate on lit. foof! but no, he had to try and grab my phone from me right?! RIGHT?! and for that, he got a knock on the head from my dad, and my phone got confiscated.

and they were like "why is she so angry?" and "I think she's forgotten who she shouldn't be angry at." and "you all ah. need to be disciplined ah. you've forgotten who we are, ah. you think we're your servants or something?" right in front of everyone. and there was this old guy that was looking at me like I was some frickin juvenile deliquent or something. under normal circumstances, I wouldnt care much, but this wasnt a normal situation. -.-

I cried lah. there. right there and then, and everyone saw, and the way the old guy looked at me, it wouldn't have made much difference if I was wearing a choker around my neck or if my hair was flaming red with liberty spikes or something. SHEESH! it was so unfair. out of nowhere there was an outburst of emotion directed at me, when all that had gone wrong was that the plan was off! I wouldnt've gotten so pissed at ~~them~~ my dad if he hadn't actually said "go to hell" in that tone, as if I couldn't look after myself better than a stupid four-year-old.

heck, I'm not even sure why I cried.

when I got home, my bro lost his stupid paper. and he cried. and I got the blame. because the paper was on MY table. but WHAT THE HELL?! I asked him to use another comp to do his work, and to take his paper. but he didn't! and then I get the blame?! and because of that my mum was being noisy all night. until eventually "The Great One" (yeah right man) came into my room and started shouting at me.

WAHLAU!

and suddenly everything becomes MY fricking fault!? they got so darn pissed! :x

wahlau ehy not fair lah. -.-

2006-05-20T08:47:00.000-07:00

it's funny, really.

I was willing to hold on. for close to four months, without even getting to see a glimpse of him. just because it felt special. like it really was. that was only because he caught me off guard, when I was least expecting it. four whole months, without once seeing him. that was what made it "special", the fact that I'd never been willing to wait so long for anyone else. yeah right.

and then when I finally know the truth, all it takes is less than a day to forget. and two to completely forget and bury it in my past, as just another disappointment in life. it's really funny. that was all it took, after all those months wasting time hoping and hoping.

oh don't worry. if you are. Im not "depressed" or anything, if that's you're scared of. I have gotten over it. so he has someone, get over it, right?

I won't deny there's not even one ounce of regret when I'm reminded of him, because there is. but really, I just don't dig him anymore.

is that just me? i wonder. if it is. there's always that small tiny voice from somewhere inside, god knows where it comes from, that tells me to hang on, no matter how shitty things might get. but all I've ever done is build a ten-foot-high wall to block it out, just because I don't want to fight the fight. it's not anything else that's keeping me from where I could be right now, it's just that I just pretend that there's no problem at all.

you know what? thank you. (: you. it doesnt matter if you know who you are or not. I just wanna thank you, for whatever it is that you've done. it might sound stupid for me to be thanking someone without even knowing what that person did. but really, this time, thanks. because you made me learn two things about me. and about life.

oh god. this sounds corny. but how un-corny can things get when you try to be sincere? O.o

am I by any chance making any sense at all? because it just seems like perfect sense to me. heh.

I might be ruining the perfection of this post. kahkah. but i AM serious about whatever I wrote up there! whatever. I dont care if you take me seriously or not. as long as I now I am. keke bye.

2006-05-18T00:12:00.000-07:00

YAY

what a nonsense posttttttttttt ><

bacin ah

and why's my tagboard and my links so sesat??? just coz I added that mcr pic thing kan?! wahlau. aper sajer jer tau. -.-

SO.

chem spa! I TOLD YOU. IM GONNA FAIL! mrs goh asked me to explain how I set up my apparatus and how I use the pipette filler to suck in water and to release it. >< and my calculations suck!!!

MATHS! MATHS! TODAY! I GOT BACK MY MATHS! GREATTTTTT BIG IMPROVEMENT MAN SHIT LAH WAHLAUUUUUU the questions are actually quite straightforward, and all I did was to go the long way and eventually get the wrong answer coz of some stupid miscalculation somewhere!!!! GRAWRRRRRRRR

Ive been getting C grades for close to everything laaaaaa so bacin okayyyyy HAIYOHHHH

which means I have to get like A for ENGLISH and A for chem eoi???? SCARED LAHHHHh): english maybe ah coz it will be easier but chem eoi?????? MACAM MANER DOK?!??!?!?!?! BACIN AH DOK!!!!!!!!! GRAWRARARARWRARWdasfdsFgf

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FISH man FISH!!! TOTALLY! FISH FISH FISH FISH

bloop

bye

2006-05-17T01:29:00.000-07:00

IM BORED!

AND THIS IS MY ATTEMPT TO CHEER MYSELF UP!!!

WAHAHAHAHA

ITS NOT FUTILE!

I ACTUALLY AM HAPPIERRR! HHHAHAHA

kay not farnie ><"

YOU SHOULD KNOW

IM SUPER BAD AT ALL THIS HTML SHIT ><

WHICH IS OBVIOUS RIGHT! HAHAHAHA

I wanted to put captions

but tak menjadi -.-"

darling VANGGE! darling VANGGE! OMAGOD she's a transvestiteee! I cant BELIEVE WHAT I DID! I JUST (oops! ayi! did it again!) touch her backside!!!!!

and spongebob rubs his butt retardedly.. itchy kot..

ARNIEEEEEE! eh tak slenger terus seh. MEMANG NUMERO UNO =.=

:O_

2006-05-16T23:53:00.000-07:00

elo

today was BAD

like, not just BAD bad. it was FUCKING bad damn it fuuuuuuuuu shhhhh

I dont even want to go into the details

and I know I'll most probably be very very emo today when I go home

I cant even fricking study like this

SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTt

it actually seemd like it was going quite well okay

WHAT THE HECK

GRAWR

I should just shut up now.

)':

2006-05-16T01:28:00.000-07:00

YOYOYOYO

I JUST HAD MATHS TEST

not that im so ecstatic coz I think I did super well or something >< xD but I think I did okay. I think there could be a chance that I improved!! :DD

sigh but @%^@$%!$@# I didnt finish the FIRST QUESTIONNNNNNNNN I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO DO THEN I LEFT IT ALONE FIRSTTTTT THEN AT THE LAST 5 MINUTES I REALISED WHAT TO DO BUT THEN NO MORE TIME!!!!!! @#&^A@#%^!%$ SUCKKKKKKKKKKKKYY FCKERRRRR):

RARH OKAY NEMIND

and I had malay today too :O sighsighsigh. peribahasas was okay. but I think I got the buta hilang tongkat one wrong. coz I couldnt remember if it was bagai or seperti or what shit. but is that counted?? it makes no sense for it to be counted ><

I HOPE IT WONT (: HEH HEH kefahaman was.. ):

gua tarak paham la dey..

litpt's due next week :/

HOW DULL SIGHHH

okay nemind I shant whine!!!!!!!):

oooo Im naughtyyy Im doing sth illegal ): okay nemind

CAN YOU TELL IM FRICKIN BORED? BECAUSE I AM!

I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO

MUG.

M

U

G

CHEM :/

:x

2006-05-14T22:40:00.000-07:00

im blogging.. again..

-.-

I just realized sth.. SPICE GIRLS SUCK... like @*!*&$%#*(&^%

HAIYERR

they really really do

how can anyone LIKE what they sing??? I heard "mama".. EWWWWWWWWWWWWW GROSSSSSSSSSS

there's no band like MCR (:

okay spicegirls and mcr are incomparable coz there's like this great big gulf between them -.-

so far : went to the clinic, went home, got some SLEEP (: , watched you got served! hahaha I feel damn slack -.-

omarion rocks! so does wade robson! :D em. lil kim sucks. wasnt she jailed recently? o.O stupid street fight or sth kan.. haiyerr.. I always KNEW she was a BITCH!! xD

I like the opening song! damn nice.. by who ah? I wanttt lol

time to eat my obat

byeeeee

2006-05-14T19:15:00.000-07:00

im sickk

literally

not so sick of love songs or whatever..

just fever.. and running nose.. and cough.. normal stuff..

yahyah do I sound bored??? maybe thats coz I am.

I just got back from the clinic!! at fajar.. and now my head is spinning.. I bought hotcakes meal! from macs! duh. yahh I should eat now before it gets cold then later not nice then I cannot eat my obat.

aiyohhh

so suck lahh.

I like my voice when Im sick.. its so.. cool!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

eh im not weird lorh. im just cool. :D \m/

what a pointless entry

my hotcakes are calling (EW that sounds wrong...)

byeeeeeeeeeeee

2006-05-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

<33!

hahaha

so! there was madrasah today. tauhid and arab exam. i think the most I can get for the arab exam is like 10/40. hurhur ><>< but nemind ah fidy also like that hehehe

teens alive starting next month! and I realize I dont want to go for it. if I do, I wont see ___ again): and I dont want that to happen ):

hahaha no lah Im only joking. -.- it's not so serious la.

I went home with amir and zakiyah.. I was gonna ditch them and just go home on my own. but the train took like 7 min. so by the time the next train came, amir and zak alrd came, so we went home together la. ^^

i think im sick :/ my voice is different la. how? @!#%# tmr got school some more know. eh tak. EXAM! maths? I cant do maths when Im sick :/ can YOU? hm actually I dont care. I cant. so what the hell lah. GRRRR. @%#$!&#$

2006-05-13T00:08:00.000-07:00

TSKYTSK.

hahahhahahahahaha

have I gone mad? hrms. i donno. have I? eh? eh oh no! IM BECOMING LIKE MAK PIAH!

eh aku suker pe'ah lah..
pe'ah maner bodo?
pe'ah tu.. yang jemboo tu..
nama tak glamour siol.. betul ke jemboo? skali jambu dah basi.. mana kau tahu dier jambu??
eh aku tahu ah.. ada radar siol.. fuiyoo.. jambu.. gerenti nyer..
eh pe'ah dah giler bodo! orang GILER pun kau cakap jambu? kau orait tak??
SIALAH dah giler? biler masa siol.. kau jangan nak bohong ah.. aku tahu kau jealous kat aku kan..
jealous otak kau, bodo! pe'ah dah giler! tak nampak die ckp sendiri tepi sungai tadI? abih tak pasal-pasal ketawa.. tu kan giler..
sialah.. aku ingat dah boleh tackle siak.. kan laki der dah mampos?
kau pergi lah tackle orang giler.. jambu punyer jambu pun giler.. apa guna siol nak tackle??

sigh.. Im just bored. I was imagining a convo between two mats at a kampong..

hahaha guess what? I might be watching take the lead later! with my family! again! lol.

yea okay not farnie.. wait ah..

*highlight it, there's wordings* d;

Your Brain is 53% Female, 47% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

eh! im almost half-half lorr! WTH?!?!?! hahahaha KENTAL AHH.. im no transvestite lorr badot... anyhow say ah.. wakhao.. cheat my feelings onie know..

IM BORED!

lalalalala

2006-05-12T07:59:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHA eh is this my third post for the daY? :O

im stealing the comp from my mum! :O so technically Im dead if she walks in on me :O :O :O I love that smiley! hahaha

OH! she's here! lol. and she said shes gonna put me under pressure to give her back the comp. but I asked her not to LOOK! and so she's right beside me, but she has her back turned :D hehehe

oh Im damn amused. LOL

yall are not not not ready HO
not not ready HO
not not ready HO
like that like that like that
bla bla

I wrote that part of petrified on my box on the class board! (x wha-hoee.

anw! YAY! I was annoyed at my dad just now about something. but I forgot what it was. I always forget why im annoyed, coz the one person that never fails to cheer me up is...

MY FAMILY!!!!!! JENG JENG JENG

lol k nemind. not farnie lorh. hehe.

random convo;

dad: ibu's still in a bad mood lah
me: so we cant do much when she's like that right?
dad: yalah but that's why you have to win her over..
me: o.O with what?
dad: with your charm.. make her smile ke.. whatever lah
me: huh? I got charm ah?

I AINT A CHARMED SISTER! lol

random convo 2; (he was in a nostalgic mood)

dad: I was walking with my private and I passed my lieutant (or sth I cant rmb) then I wanted to act besar sikit ah.. so I tried to not salute to him..
me: lol
dad: but then my private go and salute.. alamak basket betull...
me: huh? BASKET? ehh you know what BASKET means! hahahaha

EH I DIDNT KNOW MY DAD WAS COOL! HAHAHAH

okay bye

2006-05-12T01:09:00.000-07:00

EHHHH wth

whatever I blogged about just now had no relevance to whatever he said. I swear! argh! what the toot?

always know. annoying ah.

2006-05-11T23:09:00.000-07:00

today is veSAK day. ve sak.. ape sak.. loVE SAK..

okay nemind..

its such a boring day.. I had tuition at like 10am, and it went so damn well, considering the fact that I was like super blur. lerr.

so Im taking a break from mugging. for maths. I started at like 12. ive decided to mug until like 6 or something, until I everything right. because I want a NICE grade for maths. and I know I can do this.

ooh I got a msg! :O OOH so scandalous!

AIYERRR SOMEONE RETARDED NEIGHBOUR OF MINE'S SINGING DRAGOSTEA DIN TEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KARAOKE-ING SOME MORE! WAPIANNGGG TALK ABOUT DISTURBING THE PEACE MANNN!! =.= okay now it's some kid. "maiyah HEE maiyah HO maiyah HAHA maiyah blablablablabla lah.." you can IMAGINE the high HEE HO whatever parts! i know it's just a kid, but he sounds like a rusty swing lahh! alamakkkk

and then im going OUT! hehe.

I MISS BIKING AT EAST COAST PARK :/ i need to feel the speeeeeeeed, dude. I like it when I race with my cousins and we're like zipping past everyone and they're like either "whoa! slow down ah!" or "what the heck? so fast!" hahaha Im always amused by that >< AND THEN I GET TO LEAVE EVERYONE BEHIND and then they're like "OI! SLOW DOWN! THINK WE CAN GO SO FAST IS ITT???" and i dont give a damn if anyone stares. HAHA. I made abang hazim fall the last time we raced I think. hahahahaha. I fell too lah, okay, fine! I was trying to avoid this huge branch in front of me and then there was like this person coming towards me and I was like WAHHHHH *bang*

JOY TO THE WORLD! MY NEIGHBOURS STOPPED!! :DDDD

okay must mug somemore! bye! :D

2006-05-11T01:10:00.000-07:00

HELLO (:

that was me pretending to be HAPPY. (:

hey.

that was me being SAD! (:

and this. is me. being crazy! xDD

anw. I really AM trying to make myself happier. APER LAH. these past few days Ive been trying SOOOO damn many times to make myself happier. sometimes I just think "who the heck am I kidding???" but of course that's when it's an incurable temporary emo swing kinda thing ><> should WILL continue it since it's so effective! :D

okay.

so the minus things about today:
- malay sucks! i got like 44/72 for fa okay. WALAO. nak MAMPOS! -.-
- chem SPAAAAAA @$%#%@&!@
- pe was unproductive haha xD
- M.y couldnt have made it MOREEE obvious who he likes! HAHA xD ehh then that shouldnt be minus. haha because Im happy about it. .... ..... .... HUH?! okay nemind. ><
- im not the only one who knows what's happening :O wahaha
- what else? I forgot ><
- where was she?!!
- SHIT IM SCARED THERE'S LIGHTNING OUTSIDE!!!! ISHISH
- chem is CONFUSING

PLUS! :DDDD
- history is FUN haha
- I SHANT ~~FAIL~~ get a C-ish GRADE FOR MY CHEM EOI OKAY. SCREW CHEM SPA. GOT NO HOPE LIAO. PROBABLY GET LIKE LOUSY LOUSY MARKS -.- I mean my titration ROCKS! :x
- I can SCORE for math! haha really. im not kidding la dok. >< woo this is so exciting! haha
- ENGLISH EOI?!?!?!? RETEST!! BADOT NYERRRRRR!!!! rarh stupid ah.

YUP so that was MY DAY! haha <33 not that I <3ed my day. it wasnt perfect what apeRrRrR sajeRrRrRz

OH I FORGOT! WHAT THE HECK IS IT WITH GUYS AND SAYING HI?!?!??!?!?!?! WHAT THE HECK DOES IT MATTER IF I SAY HI OR NOT??!??! SHEESH KEBABISH!!! *kebap I drop on the floor and die of exasperation*
firdaus lahhhhh walao. SO ANNOYING! I was walking home, listening to blind//lifehouse. and then I suppose he just finished school or something. and I wasnt paying any attention to him coz I didnt notice him in the first place. then he went like " WAHHH budak rgs sombong SIALL nampak orang tanak TEGUR .. " @%#$&@ aper ni? HAIYERRR. so I said hi lahh o.O then he and his friends laughed then went off. what the hell. eh guys are seriously WEIRD lorh. -.- lerr

you really need to listen to me!
because Im telling you the truth!
i MEAN THIS!
IM OKAY!
trust me
- im not okay .. MCR! :D

punk ain't dead, yall WOOH (:

I just wanna break you down so BADLY
well I trip over EVERYthing you said
I just wanna break you down so BADLY
in the WORST WORST WAY
- make damn sure .. TAKING BACK SUNDAY..

korang! that last song's STUCK in my head! ever since they played it on 987 bedroom dj yest morn! >< its damn nice! haha

okay korangs kiter nak buat keje korangs BYE korangs

korangs aku mepek tau. makan banyak sangat kerepek nyer pasal.. jadi mepek. .

MEPEK oh MEPEK ~~PANTAT oh PANTAT~~

APER NI? NOONAH

kerepek ah

EEE DAH CUKUP!!!!!!!! LERR

2006-05-09T23:42:00.000-07:00

RARH.

i think I'm an idiot.

sigh.

:x

ALERRR

~~fuck~~ LAH

whatever

I just wanna break you down so badly
well I trip over everything you said
I just wanna break you down so badly
in the worst worst way
- make damn sure // taking back sunday

~~how do you force yourself to cheer up when you know it's not so simple?~~

~~FISH! =.="~~

2006-05-09T06:04:00.000-07:00

take the lead! (:

yay I watchd take the lead! it was damn nice! haha. I like the 2nd last closing song. I almost felt like bopping along to it in my seat, but then I decided that would be too paisehfying. so yah.

haiZ[ad]. >< so depressing. balik jer kena lectureeeeee jer tau. kental ah. orang lain balik nak rilek. aku balik jer kena marah. apekebende seh. -.-

sigh. there's like three cmps things to be passed up by tmr. I dun think my grpmates know of it. ><

so anyway. I shall not be so depressed. let's talk about take the lead! :D

rock and his gf look DAMN hot together. haha. I think sasha super hot too. and I like that part when dulaine dances with morgan. except that morgan is such a bitch. I like the guy who was dancing alone in the bus too! haha he thought the DISCO BALL was cool! lol.

mamii. I feel sick :/ and tmr is health check-up? whoopdeedoo. seriously. -.-

what's wrong with firefox? it wont LOAD! its the end of the worldddd :/

im sure Im being very beneficial to myself by being so depressing. I should change my state! :D

being poser is so cool. poser EMO is cool. poser BIMBO is cool. poser hiphop is cool. therefore poser= cool! lol

NO that wasnt my attempt to make myself happier lahh what the heck??! haha

oh me and has [and dian and fads] got caught in the rain just now. that's why I feel sick. because me and has had to run through the rain twice to get to taka from cine. and then right after running through the heavy heavy rain we went straight into taka which was super cold. so GOOD for us! haha >< sigh. I rain through the rain another time, to catch my 190. (:

the best thing was. I was wearing raffles tee! which is white -.- freakowaycko man. how whackosaycko. IM HAVING FUN DOING THIS, CAN YOU TELL?

nickiewickie! ballerroonie! rumpelstiltskin.. meanoweano? fidodido! lala. lalawala! wala0 d:

maybe I should deform names ><

SARDINEardino?
AMywamy
MARYweary
FADSobadso
HASiewoosie
DIANoonan
[pri]IMADdonna? haha
madonnnna??????!!!
whatever
AMIRlameh
SHADdoowadoo?
FEEQAwicker
MAYAmayer
YANTObetanto?? tak tau lah. susah ah nama kau. nama kau dah jadi mcm sayur mana tak tau lah.

eh dalah.

random convo; [msn]

eeeee bola virus says:
will you please tell me why your name suddenly has so many variations?

eeeee bola virus says:
no wait, make that WEIRD and UNGLAM variations

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
eh why you care about whether it's glam or not? heller, guys dont care about glamour, if I'm not wrong. unless you're GAY. are you GAY? o.O -suspicious look-

eeeee bola virus says:
haha

eeeee bola virus says:
whatever

eeeee bola virus says:
it's just so... how to say?

eeeee bola virus says:
unbecoming?

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
haha

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
eh hello mister

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
why should I give a damn about whatever you say?

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
it's not like I care so much what people like YOU think of me

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
wahahah

eeeee bola virus says:
wahh

eeeee bola virus says:
so baddd

eeeee bola virus says:
you just hurt my feelings ><

eeeee bola virus says:
haha

eeeee bola virus says:
explain your nick to me please

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
you're so DEMANDING (:

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
*explains* (censored info! ><)

eeeee bola virus says:
YUCK!

eeeee bola virus says:
okay you're not my friend anymore

eeeee bola virus says:
you're like.. I dunno.. not my friend

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
haha

eeeee bola virus says:
ok

eeeee bola virus says:
gtg

eeeee bola virus says:
take care

eeeee bola virus says:
get well soon..

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
get well soon? from WHAT?!

eeeee bola virus says:
but you said you didnt feel well

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
HAIYERR. DOESNT MEAN IM SO SICK WHAT! HAHA xD

lousy LAWAZY (: says:
so sick! of love songs.

eeeee bola virus says:
so tired of tears

eeeee bola virus says:
okay now I really AM being gay. what a stupid song ><

eeeee bola virus says:
okay bye! :)

and so that was the end of the convo. haha. It was very amusing, somehow. lol. i don think itd be very amusing if you read it just like that. but YEA. I think it's very amusing. xD

gtg! bye! :DD what a long post..

2006-05-08T22:50:00.000-07:00

ELLO

VE xD

anyway. im using malay room comp! :D and it's just after maths make-up lesson. my brain feels drained. -.- I keep forgetting whatever we're supposed to know la! HAIYER.

>< >< >< ishhhhhhh. im watching take the lead with has fads dian later. (: but dian has the tix.

HAHA IM VERY AMUSED! haha so loser!!!! HAHA wapiang >< I really cant believe it! lerr.

wahahahahahahaha

eh so excited ah. d:

i really think people are getting annoying lately. sigh. or maybe it's just me who's getting more and more easily annoyed! ><>< SO BAH!

haha I feel evil ready. k la going to cine liao. BYE!

2006-05-08T04:07:00.000-07:00

im well aware this this skin kinda isnt nice. and that my tagboard fits in VERY well with the bg. -.- but I dont care lah. if you dont like too bad lorh. (: simple as abc. yay.

` mikey way! <3

I AM EMO! thats why I listen to emo songs and take emo pics. ><

2006-05-07T22:01:00.000-07:00

LIT IS OVER.

and im at home?

and im super bored. -.- but my mum told me to go home straight so yalah here I am. and the house is super frickin quiet. its so boringggg! I slept at 2 am yday kay. yknow how ideal the situation is right now for me to just heap myself onto my bed and snore my head off?? lerr.

so. lit. ><>< okay from now on, NEVER NEVER involve me in any discussions that are pro-PAP okay. Im strictly anti-PAP. heck, my whole family's anti-PAP! we think lky is super toot. you dont KNOW this, but everytime anyone says anything remotely pro-PAP I swell up with irritation inside. and I always tahan, so you dont see much of it. because it aint prettaye, yo. xD

eh why are people so weird? and this has nothing to do with politics anymore la -.- I should know, there actually are weirdos in this world. but their weirdo-sity is highly questionable. because I dont understand them. and I think theyre like that because they want people to see why anyone would ever like them. aiyerr, relax lah. that kind of thing is natural. why should you fake another you just to make people see why anyone would like you? its kinda lame, come to think of it. AND NOW IM BECOMING A WEIRDO! o.O life is ironic, no?

you're there. just there . but I miss you all the same.

I shall make like a chameleon and change my skin ><

2006-05-07T11:09:00.000-07:00

you're always there lah beb.

YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING THAT IS?? lerr. -.-"

2006-05-06T20:56:00.000-07:00

i was just wondering. wondering onie ah. what if kan. WHAT IF.. what if a GIRL sang catch your wave?

hey mister
I wanna catch your eye
hey mister
I wanna be with you tonight
hey mister
hey mister
I wanna catch your eye

WAKAKA! it was on the spot! haha I swear! eh imagine. an EYE popping out.. then some despo girl screams and runs to catch it as it rolls onto the floor

WAHAHAH! xDD

got back from madrasah! this time I know he isnt. (:

im sleepy lah dehy.

ustazah called hilal hi lel. haha per jerr ><><

anyways ya lorr.

gtg

BYe!

2006-05-05T04:20:00.000-07:00

yoyo. ne-yo. wahah

eh ne-yo's quite poser ehh. hehe. aiya just ignore me if you don agree. I tend to say that the whole world is poser. including me. >.< which is true! well kinda. haha. what the hell. am I crapping? okay obviously. x)

poser-ity levels are VERRRY important in your partner, no? haha. that was random. I just think it's a cool thought. for some reason. nahh only COOL people like ME can see why it's so cool. (that's also why I will never be YOURS haha)

I bought a chicken ramly burger! Coz near my home got pasar malam so I drop by and buy lorr. I missed 960 and 963 coz I had to wait for the guy to get my burger ready. but I got it faster than this guy who came earlier than me! haha. he was super annoyed when the guy hulur-ed the burger packet to me. hahah. TOO BAD, MISTER! ahah no. but still. I wouldnt have been able to catch 171 home if not. (:

mum's working late. I'm gonna work late TOO haha. must mug for lit! :D mashimaro lah. then still got tuition homework HAIYERR. ehh HAIER electrical appliances! got such thing not? I know HAIER got ah. just dont know exactly what it is. heh.

okay so tday after sch got bengkel drama! yay. I think the luqman and zul scene is amusing! haha duhh. adi[lah]'s so.. adilah! >.<

and rs was SUPER productive tday. esp without samantha I tell you. joey and me came up with faked minutes. haha! it was fun. we just jumbled up what everyone said. so everyone said something, and we tweaked it here and there so that this person wouldnt sound so slack and all that. it's super crap! haha. ohwell. it's just a draft! >.<

my new idol. MICHAEL JORDAN! haha. no, obviously not because of the bball thing. I can so play bball. do I look like I can play bball?! NOOO duh haha xD anyway yea because he's so persevering and all that. I never knew there was more to him than just 2m of zai-ness. haha. did I spell it right-ly? o.O hoho.

which reminds me. I havent paid for glass menagerie yet! haha it was supposed to be by this week, was it not? haha oops. 18 may alliance francais. WHADDYA KNOW IT RHYMES!! HAHA.
it just struck me how weird some people can be. this world is so WEIRD! haha. as if Im not weird ah. >.<

k lah Im still in sch u and my mum will kill me if she sees me on the comp in sch u. so BYE! (:

2006-05-04T07:36:00.000-07:00

BAISEUR!

DER NARR!

haha im sacre amused.

haha byeee

2006-05-04T05:14:00.000-07:00

2.4 ! was screwd. just like bio spa, but less impt. I got 17.59 and I know that so rocks! haha rightt. my legs still feel mushy lah dokk. like mashed potato! seriously! they're like bone-less. okay not so now ah. but just now ah. wapiang. they went numb, like super numb. >.< so last few metres there I was like fuck it man just run dont care if you lose your legs just go! haha and in the end it kinda paid off because I passed with a D? or an E? huh. owell. I know it's quite depressing, considering the no. of people who felt shitty when they got faster time than me but quite frankly, I dont care. as long as I dont have to redo again. ishk. ape sey.

she heard me! haha I cant believe she heard me! what the hell! does she even know what the word means?!?! haha aper sajer!

dungubird! YES that shall be my new word! :D weeee. haha OH and I SWEAR! its got nothing to do with abs!! sheesh dude, sheesh! haha it's got more to do with dodobird. but I like dungu better.

oh let me tell you the AMUSING amusing convo I overheard on my way ~~home~~ out of school today okay! haha.

girl 1: OHMYGOD i feel damn shiyt ah!
girl 2: ...
girl 1: okay lah acherli it wasnt so bad ahh..
girl 2: shaddup please. I feel more shiyt than you la. I deproved! shiyttt...
girl 1: aiyah but you got like (insert time, I cant rmb!) u got no reason to feel like shiyt please!
girl 2: whatever la. but you said yours was okay wadd...
girl 1: yah but I still feel like shiyt! it was so shiyt please...

I was like okayyyy, how many times are you gonna say SHIT?! haha they said it damn a lot of times and I was right in front of them. not that that's impt. but yea! haha they were arguing over who felt more "shiyt" all the way until they crossed the road and I didnt! haha aper sajerr. and I was TRYING to type with their accents. their SINGLISH accents! haha you know rightt, some people just talk so SINGAPOREAN-ly! a lot of people lah actually in our sch. just that they're more enunciated most of the time. xD

yupyup. oh and my throat felt damn dry after running so much. I cant be bothered to tell you all the spastic stuff that happened to me as a result of my uncaring tiredness. >.< I dont want my post to be so lengthened. anyway YUP I bought mcflurry on my way home. (: and my throat felt better after that. haha and I bumped into benjy! sigh I donno how to shortform his name la. at macs, yea. with his friends. and he said hi and asked me if my face is always that red. (HAIYOH it was after TWO. POINT. FOUR! benjy tak suker-able ah...) and so I explained about twopointfour. and yea we talked. about other stuff that I cant rmb. and so i went home. yupyup (:

k my mum asking me to go eat now bye!

2006-05-02T01:20:00.000-07:00

shhhhhhhttttt!

Im not supposed to be here! as in, Im not supposed to be blogging!! so I shall not say where I am in the first place. I have slightly more than 5 minutes to blog. and i am super hungry :/ and the next time I will have ~~something in my mouth~~ FOOD to eat (>.<) will be at ard 6. Which is very far away from now. ))): Im so saddd.

anw. I dont really have much to blog about la. I dont know what to blog about in the first place. yknow I dont blog about school stuff/daily happenings much nowadays. I just dont find it that appealing any more. >.< since my life isnt as interesting as other people's.

Id rather be ANYWHERE than here, okay. sigh. but what to do? :/ this place is so depressing.

wow. I kinda wrote a lot in a short amount of time. heh.

I'm less moody! :D haha. as in last time kan I used to get all moody towards the end of the day. for no apparent reason. maybe it was sian-ity. ): now not so much, but I dont really know why. MAYBE IT'S COZ I DONT THINK SO MUCH ANYMORE. =o

why does every single guy I acquaint (donno how to spell >.<) myself with happen to be GAY?! JUST HAPPEN TO. JUST ONLY! really lah. it's not like I make it a point to go and befriend gay guys. hehe. I DONT! let's see. gay guys who like CATCH YOUR WAVE! *check* gay guys who do gay things *check* gay guys who do SLENGER things like DROPping their bags for no reason *check* and the list goes on. OKAY FINE MAYBE I AM EXAGGERATING. BUT STILL! Quite a number of my guy frens are gay in a sense, whether they choose to acknowledge it or not.

I wonder who reads this stupid blog. I post it without any care in the world of what anyone might think when they read it. >.< what if people I dont want to acquaint myself with READ IT?! hm. nah not possible. freaky, in fact!

YAY!! HE CAN STOP BUGGING ME! haha

oh and uh I went ~~blowing~~ (TYPO!) bowling with my family and my cousins all yday. haha. IM IMPROVING! perjumpaan was the first time I ever played bowling, actually. heh. but YAY! I am! I almost got a strike once okay. just that.. SOMETHING WENT WRONG?! hurh. okay. xD

it's so clear now that you are all that I have!
- you are all that I have
snow patrol!!

:D

go daddy yankeeeeeeee go fort mynahhhh (MINAH! xD)

okay lorh bye lorh

2006-04-30T19:21:00.000-07:00

HELLO (:

eh you know what. I just realized something. my face is getting dotties and dottier. xD haha as in like literally. there's like a new bunch of dots that just sprouted up on my nose. it's like 3D freckles. o.O wahah

what's with guys and catch ur wave mann? i would have thought that theyd think its a sissy song. sheesh, I cant stand it man. the song, I mean. not the fact that guys actually like it. which is not really stand-able anyways. but heck. wait, it IS a sissy song. maybe it like awakens the gay side of all you guys out there. haha. xD hm, or maybe they're all just wannabe beatles! (:

random convo ;

amir eh kau dah pegi rumah eton??
me eton tu saper? am I supposed to know? o.O
amir -glances at yan- >.< yaaa..
me oh. huh? but I dont know!
yan senang aper.. eton kan kaya.. ader satu rumah kat newton, satu kat bukit timah (kalau tak salah ah..)
me HUH?!
yan haha dah agak dahh.. mesti tak tau punyer..
amir ETONHOUSE PRESCHOOL LAHHH!

wakakakakaka I love that convooooooo! haha rumah eton!! nanti hari raya mesti nak pegi tauuuu. takleh skip. MESTI nyer.. abih dah kater kaya tu takkanlah nak skip kan.. dpt kaching aper.. HAHA

I feel poser. xD

anw, yesterday I had this workshp thing outside of school. its until june. from 330 to 530. ya. then ah. I never knew ernest was so laughter-prone! haha once wei tang made a joke, he kept making that -stifles laughter- kinda sound every 5 seconds, seriously. his face was DAMN red lahh after that! wahahah kriffith and me and ernest were the ones who laughed the hardest. along with jonathan. xD

okay la my mum asking me to ngaji oredi byeeeeeeeee

2006-04-27T05:46:00.000-07:00

my bro's voice is CRACKING!

haha how insane is that! or rather. ZANY! lol

I still havent given has back her barnie costume! >.<

and tonite must do maths assignment, lit fa, eng intro, ss. and I remembered all that just by thinking! and looking through my papers. I cant be bothered to take my hmk down >.< which isnt good, I know. but it's like. tedious. heh. k la not really but nemind.

I shouldnt be here bye!

2006-04-26T02:31:00.000-07:00

HAHAAAAAA OMG!!! SO NERD!!!! HAHAAAAA I STILL CANT GET OVER IT! OMFG!!!!!!!!!! ROFLLLLLssss

okay. anw.

OH MY SHIT! of paper.. xDD

well if carry on this wayyyy
things are better if I STAY
so long and goodnightttt

**

and all Ive been doing is protecting
a lie for the sake of my pride

UPTOWN GIRL
she been livin in her uptown world
I bet she never had a backstreet girl
I bet her momma never told her why
Im gonna try for an uptown girl.

SUCH A BOUNCY BOUNCY SONGGG haha

eh.. proof is deceased.. rip mans..

i should really stop being online. BYE

2006-04-25T04:03:00.000-07:00

boo! :D

yayy I just got back from tribune! (:

haha I feel like laughing out loud. Coz you see some people are so crazy. Like so literally crazy, that it becomes ridiculous! hehe. I dont understand why anyone would want to make themselves busier than they already are. I mean, it's FINE to a certain extent. But what the heck? I wouldnt do it if it meant sacrificing my sanity. -.- nevermind la it's up to them I guess. (:

yayy so what now? oh I have to mug for history. -.- and find my stupid math assignment. I scrawny piece of paper. where the heck did it go sia? >.<

freak ah. SO childish! =x

HAHA OHMAN NOW I REALLY WANNA BURST OUT LAUGHING!! WAHH SO SLENGER BADOT CAN! HAHAHA wapiang kalau dah kater giler tu GILER la apa nak buat?! takyalah nak step budak baik! badot sia.. haha

sighs

random convo ;

kayva : okay I WONT get distracted! I have to get back to my work! *rolls chair back to own comp*
me : ... *ignores*
kavya : EH where's the keyboard! *throws papers around everywhere*
me : *frown* ... it's right in front of you!
kavya : *looks under desk* WHERE! *shuffles papers* *sees keyboard* oh.
me : HAHAAAA WHAT THE HELLLL!!!!

LOL it was such an amusing convo I tell you. Seriously! haha.

HEY GURL I WANNA CATCH *hand thing* YOUR WAVE *wave thing*
HEY GURL I WANNA DRIFT *fly thing* away WITH YOU *pointpoint*
HEY GURL HEY GURL
I WANNA CATCH UR WAVEEEE

OKAY BYE! MUGGING SESSION IN FULL SWING! NYAHAHS BYE! :DD

2006-04-20T23:10:00.000-07:00

pft! as in P.F.T. hurhur

2:12! 3 more mins to go to report to kschee. Im SO gonan die la can. :/ I cant do my sit and reach properly! The furthest I can go is like 33 cm. -.- foof. TAK SUCK TERUS ah bacinnn. and my situp sucks too. Im just gonna aim for pass >.< no lah. d? ill tryyyyy.

anyway, later angklung camp. hall. starting at 430 but sec3s comin aft 6 since we have pft were coming later.

eh. so GREEN. this new person Ive encountered. seriously. so blur for what? I mean. ler nemind.

math pt SHIT. its over and done with. but still, I cant help wondering if its really sucky. I think mine is really suck coz it doesnt look pro at all. -.-

I shant demotivate myself >.< hurhur

first station is sit-up. oh foof. so gonna die. >.<

byee

2006-04-20T10:15:00.000-07:00

what was I here for? hm. oh yea. okay. I GOT GOOD NEWS! -heads whip up- *WHAT?*

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I DIDNT SCREW UP CHEM PRAC! HAHAHAAA I FINALLY GOT THE PATIENCE TO WAIT AND OBSERVE DROP BY DROP OF THAT HCL GO INTO MY BEAKER! I DIDNT OVERSHOOT! I DID EVERYTHING ALRIGHT AND I GOT TWO ACCURATE EXACTLY-THE-SAME ANSWERS!

haha ehhhhhyyy consider ME okay. chem prac. TITRATION! ME?! we're not friends man...

maybe it was my OUTFIT! THE BARNEY-LOOKING ONE! maybe I should change into that everytime there's chem prac. HURHUR

okay thats it ima pack my bag byeeeee

2006-04-19T07:06:00.000-07:00

FREAK.

>=x

go and DIE!!!

b*tch.

:'(

:/

2006-04-17T05:27:00.000-07:00

shit. stop bugging me :/ I wish youd just continously skip all the classes forever and ever so I wont have to face you every sunday. I WISH YOU'D REALLY STOP BUGGING ME!! it's quite annoying, actually. I just cant tell it to your face thats all. -.- what the heck was I supposed to answer? "oh no, yuck it's so fugly.." dont PRASAN! >.< I only said what I did to change the frickin subject. =x

she didnt help either. ohno. she told me exactly what I didnt want to hear. foof. i wish he'd dematerialize into dust or something. -.-

OH WHAT GREAT LUCK I HAVE. -.-

anyways, on a lighter note.

random convo ;

yi qing : ohhh I know that! ohhh ohhhh ohhhh
me : haha she sounds like eliza! xp
yi qing : huh?
yu xin: haha!
yi qing : oh. -tries to appear amused but fails miserably-
me : AW-OOOOO-HHH!!!!
yi qing : -smile- but I said O-H. -spells out- O. H.
me : ... HYDROXIDE !!

nyahahs I know, I'm like SO original. wahah. it just shows that despite my cool exterior im still very much of a nerd inside. wahah.

oh lemme tell you anna's joke. haha so LAME okay. which part of your body is GAY? your chin-GAY! HAHA. omg. I told you. lol. she was telling it after kak hab told the pig joke. it's a KUL thing. haha. coz we're the KUL COOL GALS (: nyahahs

NYAHAHS IS MY WORD, dont copy okay. walao. haha prasan jer. d:

angklung concert this sat! WHEE. well not really. sighs. heh. friday is math pt deadline. AND pft. AND angklung camp. :/ where I guess we'll prac late into the night. which reminds me. I WANT A FURRY BLUE BEAR! ANYONE KNOW WHERE I CAN GET ONE? kak faridah said all the kul gals have to get one, she was serious! err if youve been living under a rock all this time. lol. unless youre not in angklung, in which case you're excused. what the? Im talking craP! >.<

tmr nat'l archives visit! WAHOO! :DD actually I dont know where we're going, Im just glad I dont have to work on my article. >.< WAHAHS

cya my ss ws is CALLINGGGG my NAMEEE. and I have to answer nature's call too. >.< bye

2006-04-16T03:32:00.000-07:00

oiks.

good friday was good. hahh. I had tuition in the morn. 9-10.30. it was seriously THE BOMB please wahahs. and then I went home and gedebak gedebuk went to my cousin's maulud / birthday party thing. hehe. yupyup. no nd to elaborate more on THAT >.< dx

got home at 1230. read some mag then went to sleep (:

next day. angklung from 745 to 5 but I didnt go until 2. I had tuition at the same time as friday. but since it ended at 1030 I had a lot of time to kill. hehe. so I went to buy stuff at 7evelen with robj and made it back to class in time hurhur. he's MAD i tell you. really really mad. he keeps saying french vulgarities out loud. nicolas was like "wat ees zees? you both euhhhhh come een with big golps?! what ees ze tayme, enzo?" *enzo answers* "youware lucky you arent late" wahah

okay so after french class. which ended at around 130. I went back to sch at ard 2. nyehehs.

and then my parents picked me up to eat at soffra! this turkish restaurant. DAMN NICE ! I love turkish chocolate rice pudding! WAHOO! and then we went to esplanade. where there was this band performing live. doing maroon 5 songs and what not. okay lah. all the mats and minahs were there yknow. my dad asked me "taty budak tu lagi aper taty?" he was referring to this mat in a blazer. hurhur. with hat and all. and I dont think he just finished performing. I said "ntah, nak step taufik konon. giler.." and I said it too loud xD and the mat went like "kurang ajar siol"

wahah I'm very amused. not to mention evil. hurhur. but it's true okay. SO STUPID of him. they lovedddd so much to be on the super dark roof. where they couldnt even see each other's face and they acted emo and down-n-out and all that stuff. ISHK.

okay i have to go bye(:

nyahahs

2006-04-14T05:36:00.000-07:00

heyaaaa

im at my cussin's hse. eh salah spell. heh. heck ah. it's her birthday tmr ! wahahs HAPPY BURFDAE (:

aper uh nak ckp? I also donno..

hehe you guess what Im wearing. walao I think I look damn weird la. haha. Im wearing this long long jubah thinger that I bought donno when then only wear once before this. And tudung. Except that Im not wearing it around my head. coz my mum say dun need. so I don wear. then she sa bring just in case. and since the jubah this one is very the obscene at the neck part I wear around my neck! >.< wahah

eh sometimes I think Im too frank for my own good. I mean, I just say things straight out just like dat and I dun even care what the impact of those words is on my friends. and I end up hurting them sometimes even if I dun mean to :/ sigh. sorry kae everyone! >.<

I just realized agent cody banks is on. :/ I think frankie muniz is cute. not hot lah but cute. but how to watch? people outside tengah maulud.

okay la byeeeee

2006-04-12T01:05:00.000-07:00

I NOTICE A PATTERN OF BEHAVIOUR . WITHIN MYSELF. wahah I'm always more jiwang towards the end of the day. for what reason, I also don't know. I mean I know WHY i'm JIWANG LAH DUH ! -.-" but I don't know why it always happens at the end of the day. probably coz the day's gonna end. so I begin to digress. heh.

random convo !

me : AHH OH NO MY CHEM SUCKS !! -make face-
nelly : no lahhh
me : YESSS !
nelly + valerie : NO lahhhh
me : YESSS !
nelly + valerie : NOOO !
me : YE-- err. -.-"
all : -laugh laugh-

and then someone approaches and I'm forced to shut up. hoho. i wonder who. >.<>.< xD

eh okay ah bye bye bye

BYE BYE . -music- ~~bsb~~ NSYNC LA ! wakaka

2006-04-10T05:28:00.000-07:00

I know his name ! ohman. (: -squeal- -.- heh okay I rarely ever squeal I think. when I squeal, think of the way a pig snorts. >.< wahah I'm serious ! it's such a back-of-the-throat kinda noise. wahah. but seriously. really seriously. no big deal.

okay so how did I get from hot to back of the throat? hah? -.-

gonna come online tonight at 9. ~~Mum will so kill me.~~

I cant find my assignment ! shit.

I AINT GONNA CARE ! haha really really. such a liar such a jerk such a meano such a weirdo such a lameo such a EVERYTHIN la wahah. whys he so damn touchy? yknow if I WAS actually real pissed i wouldnt even have bothered to say hello right. or even laugh when I pissed him off. abih gitu jer marah! eh merepeknye. per sajer jer la..

what the heck this is so RANDOM! haha

geek in the peenk (:

i found my vs lookalike btw. supposedly ah. and he isnt even like.. I dunno he doesnt even look like me.. i didnt even know him before pidato or bahas.. it was si ning who just said that got one vs guy look like me when I came to school late one day. hehe. o.O -shrug-

SUCK haha

2006-04-10T03:05:00.000-07:00

(:

why cant I turn off the radiooo.. coz my bro is using it. -.- some stupid linkin park song. d: I got nothing against them. Its just the cd la.. reanimated.. the songs sound damn weird after they changed them.. right? forget it I dont really like them any more la.

wahah

I WANT TO FIND HIS FRIENDSTER :/ fads ader kan ! haha no that's rifdi. lain lah. and Im so screwd if he actually saw that particular testy. haha. xD

i didnt know vs guys are the type whod tease you about your being with someone. -.- even if youre just friends right. aper jer.

mari aku cari.

angklung was funnnnn(: sec4s05 came back! kak liy and kak nar and kak fiz ajer la. the rest disappeared. o.O wahah okay anyway YAY! yea it was fun(:

im like super mood swingy these days. heh do I always say that? >.< just now la. straight after mt. depressed like what. tau lah asal. dowanna tell you. I went toilet and I caught my face in the mirror. I looked damn worried! how come I never notice how worried I looked when Im sad?

dont say im self conscious. YOU HAVE TO NOTICE THESE THINGS WHAT ! it's called reflection !! UHH reflection upon yourself not reflection on the mirror.. -.- wahah really okay >.<

OH shit im supposed to come online at 9 2nite. nyahahs its to discuss cmps. (: which is kinda due tmr. -.- screwd I tell you.

random convo -point-

hannah : are you vibrating?
me : yea ... ... I dun need a vibrator (:

nyehehs

dalah boring ah bye(:

2006-04-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

dude, you did the wrong thing. I hate people who insult my friends. people like you. =x

lerr

ORA ! thk gd he wasnt there la. wahhh I think it went quite well (: though I ended up not doing my ak shift. I only crushed ice for like 15 minutes for them. my shift was supposed to be 2 hrs. d: hehe. but the perbayu stall was right next! (:

and then I went french class and back to rj. and went for bahas. RG WON! yayay! ((:

oohoohooh V[idal] S[assoon] CARPET ! wahah so hot ! hurhur. okay i shall stop being giler.

ala giler. alamak giler. opps memang dah giler ke ni?

=.=

i'm not in the right state of mind, that's all (: nyeheh byebye

2006-04-07T07:35:00.000-07:00

SHITTTTTTTTTT

WHY DONT I EVER LISTEN TO MYSELFFFF

AND MY FRIENDSSS

FFFFFFFFFFF

NEVER. I SWEAR TO GOD OVER MY DEAD BODY, NEVER FRICKIN AGAIN! NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER

STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID

:/

sports fest ! ^^

2006-04-07T03:11:00.000-07:00

we were meant to live for so much more
have we lost ourselves
- meant to live // switchfoot

nyahahs quite an old song. -.- I just discovered it ! nyahahs. no actually the first time I heard it was when they had that 987 ad with the guy who had an axe in his head. I thought he was cute d: hehe.

okay so it's 612, just after sports fest. well not really. it ended at 430 there.. went home with kak syima. who was elated that she got a good price for 6 packets of corn. nyahahs. the train ride home was sleepy. I half slept d: I promised her Id buy corn from the ncc stall though. [:

I bought big gulp and crunch! :D crunch rocks. if only it wasnt so mushy tasting. -sticks tongue out- melty la, not mushy. and since kak syima had to buy corn we ended up exiting ntuc at the basement. where there weren't any more dustbins. so I stuffed my crunch into the big gulp and carried it allll the way to bukit panjang lrt. haha. I like biting my straw (: it's so cool, dude. word.

I dont like milo. Ive never taken a milo drink from the milo van that's always there for stuff like sports fest and net carn. milo tastes weird to me, haha. so it doesnt really go down with the threetwelve milo cult. haha. more like culture. o.O" actually I dunno. wahahs.

ora's tmr! I dont really care abt that thing anymore. as in. the other one, not ora. haha. im developing my own immune system. nyahahs.

oh and I bumped into danial on the way back. and some other guy from pri sch who nodded at me but Ive never even known his name. you know the way mats acknowledge each other. yea. that kinda thing. I think his name was. er. something that starts with an.. err.. err? suck I don't know! haha. one of those wannabe tough guys.

WAIT. all mats are wannabe tough guys! haha. not really. but nevermind. sucks to tough guys, wannabe or not. wahahs. :D

i wanna play gameboy bye(:

2006-04-06T06:40:00.000-07:00

elo

at home again. it's 942. I feel so free.. coz tmr's sports fest and there's no hmk..

my dad said he might consider buying me mp4.. but I dun think so la.. I think he'll get me sth else.. he wants to get me sth that's intrend.. and wont be out of trend in a long time.. which is a bit impossible.. coz sooner or later people will get tired of a new gadget right.. I dun need anything other than mp4 or mp3 .. it's just that I WANT either one of the two you see. heh.

): i didnt know he could be such a MEANO): haha but actually he's quite okay la. as in. yea. okay. just that I was the one being idiotic. heh.

walao dowanna go ora. ala. it's not coz I dowanna go the stalls. it's kinda complicated. and I bet you're so interested. NO YOU'RE NOT. haha

bye! x)

2006-04-05T03:11:00.000-07:00

I'm blogging again. this time I'm at home. what's today's hmk? hurm. I'll go check later, I promise. ((:D haha that was a typo. but it looks cute! RIGHT! so weird.

I'm so proud of myself. haha coz I didn't screw up bio lab just now. it was indiv okay! it's quite a feat for me d: considering that time during chem. I felt so worthless man. see ghl I'm not worthless! WAHAH (:

EE! THERE'S A CICAK ON MY WALL! maw-oon. word, man. haha.

LA I'm just being very very random. there really is a cicak on my wall! but now it's gone so wth. maw-oon was coz of nelly and her galileo maw-oons! haha. she kept searching for maw-oon for every mind map that we had to see in hist yest okay. haha. and word.. I ready told you.. I said that to nurul just now.. she was like huh?! haha.

NEMIND it's for cool people. haha.

i love 312! <33

ahh lovee rock n roll. blabla

2006-04-04T22:45:00.000-07:00

HELO

I'm using class comp. It's 1:48. I'm free now, so I should be going home. But obviously the bus stop will be super super full with rg girls. I can't STAND. haha as in I can't stand in the bus. what did you THINK I was saying? hurmm? yea okay I'm not making much sense. Owell. d:

I still havent decided. how?! but at least I think I have more basis to decide on. Nyehehe. has just laughed at me for even thinking of deciding. haha. I'm not telling you what i'm deciding ABOUT !! wahahs. that part.. maybe I'll tell you.. like.. never. wahah

cle was in the hall just now. fads and dian were conteng-ing something on my knee with dian's pink zig. But then the evil evil person took her zig away. she returned it la. but nemind. jahat! you think I'll get into trouble for writing this?! hrm. wahahs. whatever.

YAY I'm kinda glad with how I'm doing this year. It isn't like A+ kinda standard. But at least I know I'm trying. It's a start! :DD I'm trying and it's working! and I think I'm happier this year. ^^

I'm confused about lit though. hehe. I dun understand which grp is for which. as in. there's a grp for pt, which I know (mary nurul yi yun me), a grp for rg book day, which I don't know. I think yu xin is in it. and uh. there's another grp for this upcoming presentation that we're gonna make abt pygmalion. That, I think, is the normal group (yi yun mary jasleen flora me)

I shall go home at 2:20! yay. there's music class today. :/ I'd rather slack or sth. haha okay I bet you SO wouldnt wanna slack if you could right. haha.

WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE SO SERIOUS?! Like, they don't see the FUN in things. It's so.. weird.. and.. I don't know what's the word..

kk gtg bye!

2006-04-04T08:18:00.000-07:00

heyy..

1122.. I'm supposed to be doing maths assignment. which is due thurs. but I really cant be bothered any more la. I mean I've done bio and lit and I dunno how to do my chem prac (no havent handed in). I hpe there isnt any more hmk.. for now the major stuff is maths pt, lit pt, cmps..

oh my grp is really weird. as in cmps grp. yea, I'm in cmps. Because you see we're doing this thing on podcasting, so we werent sure to put it as cmps or rs at first. then we asked tbc (not tlc ugh) and she said it's not really a community problem. So we decided to do as rs. And we missed all the cmps trngs, which means we dont know hoot about the fps method which we're so clearly supposed to use. We're supposed to come up with the part abt the area of concern by this tuesday. I think we're supposed to finish the fps method by august. Because fll said august is when they're gonna choose teams to go for the comp in melbourne (:D) and she said our team and two others doing podcasting too could be sent by the school as one whole project. She said we have a good chance of going or sth. and besides, we couldnt do it as rs coz if we wanna do it as rs we have to disband (max 3 per grp rmb) which is kinda tough. so yalah, cmps here we come! haha. it should be interesting :D

except we can't find a day to meet up to do the area of concern. friday's rs block is out coz of sports fest (I forgot and I was wondering why everyone couldnt just use friday's rs block d:) and sat and sun there's no common time. so basically. OMIGOSH, LIKE, WE'RE LIKE, TOAST.

hist! got hist back. I got a low B grade. ): it's 20% can. no I didnt get 20%, I meant the % of that test. get it? haha. mampos. so next one I have to get like A or A+ ke aperke.. omigosh.. scary.. impact of scientific revolution.. right now, everything that g is teaching seems so abstract.. I dun really understand.

and will someone PLEASE tell me what's the use of the macro concepts!! you know most of the time, when asked, we just give politically correct answers. Except I dunno what's the politically correct answer for this thing I just asked. heh.

dear daddy just scolded my bro for peeling the plastic off the top of his bed. the place where you lean on. It has this white sofa pillowy kinda thing there. Why is he so pissed just because of that?! It's just a fricking plastic cover! Just because of that all the nonsense words come out.. monyet ah.. baboon ah.. gila babi ah.. setan ah.. I'm serious! really! what else could I mean by nonsense words.. and I didnt know parents had mood swings too. -.- they still have hormones in their body? realleh?

I really love my mortals! except I havent written to any of them since 2 weeks before term 1 ended. >.<

bio tmr! HOW TO DESCRIBE THE SHEEP'S STOMACH?! okayokay I have go it's 1140. mum's gonna kill me. bye!

2006-04-03T06:09:00.000-07:00

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
- blind // lifehouse (:

I mean what I say, okay. ooh that song hit some chords deep inside me, man.. right there. >.< sigh. what do I do? what's a girl to do? I have no idea. I'm just putting off deciding. Like I always do. -.-

on a lighter note. you know when I checked my email just now. haha. JUNK EMAILS ROCK! :DD what nonsense la. they got so many different crappy emails. Got ads for sex toys la, things like get higher climaxes and orgasms la, better erections la..ke elections? okay takper mengarut d:

SITI!! haha siti wants to play with me! HAHA! She sounds VERY WRONG but she doesnt even know it la. haha how amusing d: she misses me, she misses playing with me! HAHA doOd. word.

no I dont know what word means. It just sounds like a nice enough substitute for "cool". so yea. better than like.. far out.. or something. NYAHAHS.

HOW DO YOU SAY SLUT WITHOUT MEANING TO BE RUDE?! is slut rude in the first place? gaH! i dun even know. dx am I that vulgar?! no right. I mean like.. I'm like.. angelic.. all.. -draws halo- xD PFAH! oh and I wanna know because it's for my trib article. shut up if you don't know. dx dont know dont ask la. haha. thats what they used to say in pri sch. d: apparently I have to use less colloquial language >.< NYAHAHS

I'M IN LOVE! with lifehouse. -.- okay the SONG blind by lifehouse(: haha

i love mcr more though

o.O

WAHAHS

I've just seen something very amusing. but like I said. dont know dont ask! :DD even if you did I wouldnt tell you what. nyahahs. toods, peepos. haha I know that sounds so THE FIMBLES but nevermind. d:

2006-04-01T20:35:00.000-08:00

ALO!

just got back from madrasah dok. (: amusing enough. WAHAHS. ust salha mulut lanyap seh.. pandai buat imitation gitu.. haha if only she knew how amusing she looked. NYAHAHS. Anyways. you know how ustazahs always go like.. err.. how ah.. how to say?! ERR. nyahahs oh okay they go like blablabla then they say half a word, suspend the word without completing it, then stare wide-eyed at us and expect us to answer. THE PROBLEM WAS no one was paying much attention except for rozaini, me, fidy, nasrin, khalis, all those guai-er people lah. NYAHAHS I'm GUAI okay. anyways. ust salha kept suspending the words and expecting us to complete it. and it was always rozaini who answered! haha because I don't think the rest could be bothered or something. yea then everyone else was stoning except him and me and all those people up above. so it was damn funny. haha. you werent there la so you probably dont get it. nyahahs. the point is, it was funny! haha rozaini answers, looks exasperated. I laugh then him and zaman go lol and give these DUH looks. Haha. zul ah...HE CAN SO SING! ahaha jiwang sal..

random convo 1!
ust salha : awak dah sembahyang?
random kid : dah!
ust salha : ah macam gitu lah.
random kid : memang dah, ustazah! tapi saya terkencing dalam seluar tadi ah ustazah, macam mana ustazah?
ust salha : x.x =.=

random convo 2! (french class)
nicolas : ghoy, can you plis ghead zis paght. ( roy, can you please read this part. )
roy : no! *nods*
nicolas : *stares* ...
*dominique falls off his chair deliberately* *enzo laughs* *shane goes BRAIN DAMAGE!* *gina convulses into fits of laughter*
shane : ROY HAS BRAIN DAMAGE!
*laughter* *class goes silent* *dominique still shaking with laughter*
nicolas : *stares at dominique despairingly o.O* *flips page of book* ... tais-toi mirepois! what a stghange class zis ees... stghangeeee stghangeee class ... (shut up mirepois! what a strange class this is... strangggeee stranggeee class)

random convo 3! (STILL french class :DD)
nicolas : hu teenx dominique mirepois is weighd? (weird)
*whole class raises hands*
nicolas : hu teenx I am weighd?
*whole class but me raises hands*
nicolas : ahh, you see, mees quiet does not teenk I am weighd...
gina : raise yuir hay-and! raise yuir hay-and! (sorry gina d:)
me : WHAT THE HECK. *raises hand*
nicolas : *looks scandalized*
and we all laugh at him :DD

YES, I HAVE A DYSFUNCTIONAL CLASS. just in case you havent figured that out. WAHAHS.

okayokay wanna play sims! I want the gay guys to kiss! :DD bye!

2006-03-29T05:33:00.000-08:00

just got back from pidato finals! (: at tpjc. juara was ri. yay. apasal kental sangat? only haliim was there. -.- anw kesian vs. I just realized their sch name can be Vidal Sassoon! VS! get it? WAHAHS. kesian betul. and whats temasek academy ip? got such thing ah? >.< sorry la..I'm just not informed..deprived..and whatever shit...

whats with the lookalike man?! FREAK OFF! rarh. no it isnt even his fault. owell.

eh tell me. I'm very confused. some people mistake me for an indian. then others mistake me for chinese. and the answer is. I'm neither! it's so weird! -.- the taxi driver just now la wahlao. oh i cabbed back from bedok. when mum comes back I shall demand refund. haha. anyway we were at bp ready la. then he looked up at me in the mirror. I was sleeping heh. so he woke me up. simply by saying a few chinese words. O.O I was like what? I must have misheard or sth...obviously Im malay right...but no he repeated then I was like err..I'm not chinese. he looked damn shocked la. he was like WHAT?! the expression on his face I mean. haha. then he turned his whole body round to look at me and he looked damn shocked. he almost didnt turn properly okay, I swear. WALAO what the hell?! I prefer to stay malay, thankyou very much. -.- Isnt it THAT obvious?!?!?! or do I just get tanned real easy and get light real easy too?! huh? I dont get it.

okay. one entire paragraph devoted to...um. racial...orientation? shit no haha I dont care. >.<

sigh. why am I so mood swingy these days? I felt high two minutes ago, I really did. Now I just feel like criticizing everything and anyone under the sun just for the fun of it. and for no apparent reason. what the hell?!

fck I wanna kill my dad. =x sikit jerr nak discuss. discuss. discuss. SHITTTT! "we'll discuss this when I got home. this is not the way to go. how can you do this?" WAITAGO! think he just made me feel a zillion times better dont you think?

wth does this fricking world want from me?! when I try and be happy you say something's not right. when I dont give a damn how awful I look you say what's your problem? always so sad like nobody's business...

my fingers are like itching to type 10000 swear words right now la.

I'm sorry for such a productive post. I know I'm in the best of moods right now >.< I just feel like saying "fuck". RARHH.

now what do I do?!

2006-03-26T05:32:00.000-08:00

wahh I'm damn tired. out the whole day..800 onwards..so hsien..

first up: madrasah as usual. dad actually woke up early enough to send me to madrasah 5 minutes late. -.- better than the usual 45 minutes late. haha at least I'm not like nur muhammad. o.O who always comes at 900 and no one gives a damn. sighs. zul is such a crazy idiot okay. you know what he did when I left? he said "bye sayang I love you.." i was like wahlao =.=" course he was ony joking lah. I mean he's done that to loads of girls loads of times. haha. he cant tahan his nafsu what. haha. oh I had to leave at 1025 coz my mum was going to the airport at 11.

you know what I cant be bothered to write abt my day I'm alrd tired enough as it is. no mum for 5 days:/ never realized how sad that is..

SORRY LA! I KNOW I'M VERY IRRITABLE TONIGHT. penat la bodo. haha. no I didnt mean that that was nonsense just ignore it. maybe I should go drink coffee or something...

nyahahs

i'm depressed. I'm very depressed. I'm hurt. I'm very hurt. I'm worried. I'm very worried. I CANT STAND THIS ANYMORE. so I shall sit through it?!?!?!

RAHHHHHHHH fdslfkdstiucvxbreyu

OKEY tak nonsen terus...laaaaa...I just needed to do that la...

kak nur ask me to check her friendster. I promised her I will before I sleep. so bahbye(:

2006-03-24T22:26:00.000-08:00

IS EVERYBODY GOING CRAZYYYY
IS ANYBODY GONNA SAVEEE MEEEEE
CAN ANYBODY TELL ME WHAT'S GOIN ON
TELL ME WHAT'S GOIN ON
IF YOU OPEN YOUR EYES
YOU'LL SEE THAT STH IS WRONGGGGG.

okay. that was fun! :D

whatever. APM! yesterday. I went to sleep after...how long ah? 3/4 through I think. maybe. why were there so many jiwang2 slow slow perfs?!?!?!?!?! #@$% irritating you know. but the vince+eka marina perf was nice. PETERPAN WON TWICE! :DD taufik won once! Mawi won once! I dun like ahli fiqir ah. It's like..noisy. but where was sheila atas tujuh?! WADUH kok nggak ada langsung sih. AZNIL ROCKS! :DD HIS BELT ROCKS! lol. haha so does rossa! is that her name?! o.O oOoOoOo she's so cute. I'd like totally marry her if I was les. xD she's so cute ah. LIKE ME RITE! :D

I'm hungry

I want koko krunch

INDIGO! YEAH YEAH WILSON CASTILLO! wahh those eyes! WAHH! WAHH! WAHHH! WAAaaahh....?!?!?!?! bloop. SHAKE THAT ASS! shake that ass mami. BACK THAT ASS mami. I'm right behind you mami now GRIND THAT ASS mami.

now apek is touching youR backside

when she turn around alamak muka macam babi

DARLING VANGGE! DARLING VANGGE!

you nv know what would happen next. people surrounding you wearing TAPPERED PANTS!

cacat. joget mcm budak terencat. saper tengok tak terperenjat.

can you tell I'm bored. I'm super bored. yes I'm bored! nyahahs. alahai. k so I just got back fr french class. yay. I get the feeling that robj is very amused with me. dun ask me why. I also dunno why. stupid idiot.

mandy always laughs when I act stupid. I am unaware that I'm a nuisance. with her it's never wasted time. -jonas brothers! :DD

2006-03-22T20:44:00.000-08:00

what's the worst thing I could say??
things are better if I stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight
- helenaaa/MCR :DD

hm. my mum's leaving for manila this sunday. this conference thing is on. she really doesnt wanna go. sigh.

come to think of it. what is WITH my family?! it's becoming dysfunctional. haha. last week my dad took us all to isetan to spend some vouchers. not like I bought anything, though. he asked me if I wanted any toys or not! o.O I'm like. D: o.o mostly spent on my mum. coz she deserves it anyway. she bought shoes and blouses. haha she's been scouring the whole of singapore for shoes. she's always looking for shoes, haha I dunno why.

and when we walked through the women's section, my dad asked me "what kind of women want to wear that? -.-" and he pointed to the t-shirt bras. -.- I was like.. = O _ err. that was supposed to be a gaping mouth. I dont know how to make a gaping mouth. heh.

random convo:
dad: so where we going?
mum: find somewhere to eat. how about alif? (the one at bukit batok :D)
dad: anything, I don't mind. taty? (taty's like my nickname since 3 yrs old. my family on both sides calls me that ^^)
me: anywhere.
dad: why don't we go orchard? (whenever he says orchard it means he wants to go kinokuniya)
mum: ahh okay you got that voucher to spend right? ok ok. I must look for shoes also lah.
*silence, dad drives*
bro: I BLEW A BUBBLE! *look of elation*
*cricket sound, bubble pops*
bro: alaaaaa. now I cant remember how I did it!
dad and me: lol

sigh. family seems so much nicer now. (: at least there's less exchange of unpleasantries..-.-

I MADE TWO GUYS GAY! on the sims. haha I even made them KISS! yes it's possible. okay I'm hungry. bye.

2006-03-21T21:35:00.000-08:00

boo.

BORED..BORED..BORED..BORED..BORED..yougetthept. -scratcheshead. -.-

where'd you go
I miss you so
seems like it's been forever
that you've been gone
please come back home
-where'd you go/fort minor

:/

2006-03-20T17:38:00.000-08:00

-slaps self. don't THINK, self. DONT. not abt it anyways. rarh.

okayokay. SO. nyahahs. what did I last blog abt? o.O oh okay. well, I havent blogged abt kiq. can I not? >.< as in, not blog about kiq? -.-" sigh. ala what the heck la.

kk. so. I was uh late. heh. bcoz I had to go send my mum first. she had this impt presentation to make early in the morning. so she had to go to work earlier to prepare earlier. sigh. I'm so proud of her okay. she's so...super mum...kindathing...but I'm just too...I dunno...I cant say I'm proud of her to her face. I dunno why.

anyways. yupp. am called me and I heard kak mairah's voice in the bg. So i kinda half-expected people to be running ard or sth when I went in. but NO. haha everything was still very stagnant. so anyways yup joined dian's grp. bcoz they reshuffled grps? o.O ya. then changed kiq shirt and waited ard fer the goh and the kids to come. yupyup.

we got an all-boys grp! ): so in the end it was only me dian diyanah and lana. yupyup. sigh. the rest were the amp kids and zaki, adib, ahmad, and I cant rmb who else. yea.

rarh I shant blog abt ind games coz...malas lah! yahyah. so...I think the only two enthu enough kids in my grp were arif and mahfouz. is that how you spell his name? hmMmMm. i dunno. oh arif the kid, I mean. haha.

and then blabla games YAY perf cheer WHOO! grp pic yay where is it now uh? o.O and then scrabble telematch. I left halfway. went to jaybee with my family(: aiya for more info, pls...visit the counter...nolah go my cous' blog. maria. if you want lah.

then ydae got kampong glam fieldtrip(: okayyyy la. haha. oh did YOU know intan means diamond! I thought it meant flower. it sounds like flower what! buat malu jerr tau that tour guide person ask me whats the meaning of intan. then I said flower she was like HAHHHH? I was like oh its not? oops. -shoves paper bag onto face.

I loved the cultural show! eh not bad the taman warisan melayu place! never gone there before. tepak sireh also...heh mary and dian were like "my cousin got married here!" or sth. then I was like...they filmed erlin montel here...come to think of it...got such a thing as filmed ah? o.O"

okay I havent had breakfast gtg bye(:

2006-03-18T20:08:00.000-08:00

HIHIHIHI(:

I'm like, doing rs, right now, like, omigowd.

nahh but that's not the problem.

the problem is

I'M HIGH! :DD

YAYAYAYAYAYYY!

so therefore I'm crazy.

you know what I just did. I just stared at the comp. At this post. and I thought about something. and I giggled like a stupid idiot. on my own. alone. in my room. it's weird okay! #@$%

blabla okay I'm eating bubbble gummm.. POP. oops I typed poop. but obviously I changed it already. nyahahs. duhduhduh.

BYE

2006-03-17T01:13:00.000-08:00

I JUST BLEW 40 BUCKS!

nyahahs. on uh new threads. and books. and my mum's not mad! that's weird! haha but it's GOOD uhhuh yupp it is it is. my dad just laughed when I told him abt my expenditure today. I don't get it. o.O whyowhyowhy must they be so STRANGE?!

hahh. oh yesterday I blew 50. on log stuff for kiQ la. all the stuff is with kak sel. now the problem is Im not sure who I shd go claim that 50 from.

and I owe my mum 20 bucks and a major room revamp for cutting my hair. haha. okay not exactly room revamp, just major pre-pre-pre-pre-spring cleaning? hm you know what. I don't even understand myself NYAHAHS!

it feels so weird to give large amounts of money to the cashier. don't ask ME why, I just think it is! xD

2006-03-16T16:57:00.000-08:00

I cut my hair! but I lazy to explain more. see it when you see me lor.

today is friday. tomorrow is saturday. kiq. I'm a fasci! and i'm not in av anymore. >.< nyahahs okay. (: most of my batchmates dowanna go because some people are very slenger :p nyahahs too bad. lol.

melissa! the husky voice girl! why was she ousted!): she was okay what..in fact I like her voice. so cool..just because she's a girl and has a husky voice...that's very sad): wait you do know I'm talking about ami right. haha of course you do. HURM. xD did you see her face! she was very sad okay. ): ishk.

sigh so that makes chris daugherty my fave contestant. he's so cool! I cant believe he's married la. not that I'm interested. -.- just that I cant picture a guy like that being married with two kids. anyway ace isnt bad either. but why was he in the bottom 3? heh I dont think he should sing such squeaky songs. His voice is more..I dunno...rock?! and if only elliott had better teeth. and taylor is so cute! haha so alive...

gtg I have tuition in an hour's time. bye!(:

2006-03-16T01:50:00.000-08:00

HELLO.

I dowanna be a stupid girl
-pink!(:

nyahahs. okay. that's the song of the day for me. ^^ It was just on mtv just now. and then was L.O.V.E. I'm getting tired of that song ah..so many times listen ready sials. haha okay. anyway WUHU STUUUPIDD GIRLLL. STUUUPIIID GIRLLL. :DD

so today, had angklung..as usual. wahahs no lah. just up until like 1. Yup I thought it was because we were recording our cd today but apparently not so nvm la. I dunno why it was shortened then. nyahahs.

then kak faridah belanja-ed me and kak seleena to eat at cahaya. yupyup. haha she says that I should not even dare to cut my hair. After concert than cut my hair. Because then me and hannah can look the same. But I want short hair! I've waited since mid sec2 okay I SWEAR! >.<

so anyways then me and kak sel went to popular to buy log stuff for kiq. yup. no I'm not in log. I'm a fasci. But I'm just helping. And I was the only one who could buy today. so ya.

and no, just in case you're wondering, I'm not doing because of her. This is for me, doOds. ya dig? -.- nyahahs.

and guess what happened to me in the bus. haiya. I fell asleep until damn teruk sials. Like leaning to my right. I was at the very back of the bus. So not so bad la but still. There was this mat sitting opposite me. haha when I terjaga from my tidur he was looking at me like o.O and then I was like shit. ohno. he broke into this stupid grin okay. and then he said "adik ngantuk eh adik? kesian adik. dari tadi abg tgk asik tertido-tido aje." omg. I dont even know him pls. some ite mat. I think I've seen him on the bus before, I dunno. who cares anyways. but ALA! damn paiseh okay. walao idiot. sigh.

have I told you about that camera thing I saw at nus cultural centre! Ah! Damn nice! ><>.< the catch is that it's not a very well-known brand. it's called jxd. china-made I think. and they were selling other stuff too. There was this thing which looked like ipod shuffle but it wasnt. okay I really want it but I shall shut up or I wont stop. RARH.

yay my dad's picking me up to get cut my hair later! NYAHAHS YAY.

okay I better bathe nyahahs it's 6:21 dad's coming at 7. (:

and yes, new word of the day: NYAHAHS! nyahahs. =p

2006-03-13T00:28:00.000-08:00

miiisaaiiiiii misaaaiiiiiiii!
...
goyanggoyang macam PANTAT BEYONCE!
- tak senonoh/hafiz as'ari(:

wuhu I love . RILEK SUAAA! xD isn't that just cool man. That's some phyne shit, dawg! \m/ Actually I don't really think there's such a think as "phyne shit". But who the hell cares. I'MA SET A NEW TREND, DAWG! Who wants to join the dog pound! (x ohnono. aiya dowan ah. later my dog become randy jackson. want to die izit.

byeee

2006-03-11T06:03:00.001-08:00

boo!(:

guess where I am. hehe. clue: saturday night. .... my granny's hse la duh! haha where else can I blog on a saturday night LOL.

I'm sick lorr. walao. bcoz ydae going back from swim carn I never use my umbrella then I just walk in the rain. heh. how was I supposed to know that I'd get SICK! ass la. >.< yknow it so sucks to be sick. I think my voice is SO SUPER nice I tell you. DAMN NICE. -.-"

maria looks bored. haha okay now she's smililng bcoz she gets to listen to my love. by westlife. HEHE. I always do this to her. haha say whatever she's doing/looking like/etc on my blog. HEE. she's EXCITED for tuesday. I WONDER whaat's happening on that day lorh. hehe.

okay anyways. what can I say about today? aiya nothing interesting today. Just that I saw this khairul anuar lookalike at macs @ Taka. But I still cant figure out whether it was a girl or a boy. heh. look so gentle. then again. look like boy. wth! o.O ishk.

ohyah french class just now! haha my class is super retarded. lol. people like dominique meerebus and robert john. OH! KEKE! and NO I'm not trying to laugh. o.O haha it's french for kukubird. hehe apparently. robert john taught me. o.O and then nicolas heard and went like HOI! what did you just say! haha. you know he says alamak damn farnie. aiyo. because he's french. CAN YOU IMAGINE SOMEONE FRENCH SAYING ALAMAK. it's like alamerk. xD hollie didnt come....no wonder robertj looked so dejected. coughawcough. haha LOL.

trendsetter. that's what you are. and boy, you don't even know it(: and I miss you like hell. )):

YAYAYAY got no learning journey week! :DD haha. oh. kiq next saturday! ((:

OKAY gtg my auntie asking to switch off the comp. >.< byee!(:

2006-03-11T06:03:00.000-08:00

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boo!(:

guess where I am. hehe. clue: saturday night. .... my granny's hse la duh! haha where else can I blog on a saturday night LOL.

I'm sick lorr. walao. bcoz ydae going back from swim carn I never use my umbrella then I just walk in the rain. heh. how was I supposed to know that I'd get SICK! ass la. >.< yknow it so sucks to be sick. I think my voice is SO SUPER nice I tell you. DAMN NICE. -.-"

maria looks bored. haha okay now she's smililng bcoz she gets to listen to my love. by westlife. HEHE. I always do this to her. haha say whatever she's doing/looking like/etc on my blog. HEE. she's EXCITED for tuesday. I WONDER whaat's happening on that day lorh. hehe.

okay anyways. what can I say about today? aiya nothing interesting today. Just that I saw this khairul anuar lookalike at macs @ Taka. But I still cant figure out whether it was a girl or a boy. heh. look so gentle. then again. look like boy. wth! o.O ishk.

ohyah french class just now! haha my class is super retarded. lol. people like dominique meerebus and robert john. OH! KEKE! and NO I'm not trying to laugh. o.O haha it's french for kukubird. hehe apparently. robert john taught me. o.O and then nicolas heard and went like HOI! what did you just say! haha. you know he says alamak damn farnie. aiyo. because he's french. CAN YOU IMAGINE SOMEONE FRENCH SAYING ALAMAK. it's like alamerk. xD hollie didnt come....no wonder robertj looked so dejected. coughawcough. haha LOL.

trendsetter. that's what you are. and boy, you don't even know it(: and I miss you like hell. )):

YAYAYAY got no learning journey week! :DD haha. oh. kiq next saturday! ((:

OKAY gtg my auntie asking to switch off the comp. >.< byee!(:

2006-03-10T06:53:00.000-08:00

bloody hell ah. shitttt. this is like the nicest feeling in the whole wide world.

my dad just got back home in this superly bad mood then he started scolding me for god knows freakin what now I dont really care. and my mum just started nagginggg and nagginggg and my bro kept exclaiming loudly that I'm in a bad mood. and my throat is kinda sore tho I have no idea why since i didn't even cheer that much at swim carn just now. nothing serious tho. I dont fancy sounding like a frog. but I dont feel all too well. tak sedap badan...i think coz I nv use my umbrella just now. heh I couldnt be bothered to la.

rarhhh. enough of that crap ready.

so just now. swim carn. went with yu xin. and her friend sanqian. that niner girl who was the gay boss! or something. the gay big brudder la. haha d: so we rushed to toa payoh, dapao-ed (or however the heck you spell it I dunno how to spell! xD) lunch, rushed back to toa payoh mrt where we lost san qian and her friends because I made yu xin stay and top up my ezlink with me heh. then yupp we were on time. we were like half-running half-briskwalking! haha. richard got 4th:/ nemind la. then after that went home with amira aida shirlynn. yaye. I just sat down once I got in the mrt la. didnt really care if people would think I'm nuts or what not. because i kinda am anyways. then I fell asleep (which I'm kinda more prone to nowadays:/) then went choa chu kang lrt and homeward bound. yaye. I bumped into...faris izit. is that his name. wth nemind. as in madrasah faris not that faris. -.- the fat faris. not the thin faris. get it. ><

do I make it sound like I keep bumping into guys from my madrasah. because how the hell can I help it! me and fidy are the only two girls in our class la pls. lerr. and it's not like I ask to bump into them. I'd rather not. It's either they'll completely dao me or they just...look at me weirdly o.O and I have to pretend I don't see because people like rozaini will say I never say hi if I look. to which I could respond they nv say hi also what oabih nak katekan org plak tu but I cant be bothered. -.- rarh la. think the only guy I'd ever nt dao is zul. but that's because he's mature enough not to say such stupid things. haha. suddenly I'm saying that zul is mature? huh? of all people zul? mature? hmmmm. maybe I should review my thinking process. o.O nah I can't be bothered.

am I becoming EGO. hAlp! i dowanna become EGO. please! ): later become like...erh. __(insertname)__. nah I actually just cant think of any ego people right now. heh. oh rephrase. I can't be bothered to use my brain cells. xD

why can't I bothered to do so many things!

....

why am I becoming paranoid.

RARHHH. -.-"

5% pleasure

2006-03-08T00:21:00.000-08:00

I HATE DAO PEOPLE! *wrinkles nose*

rarh. :/

the only significant thing that happened today was bio. I screwed bio! FEESH. blegh. oh and I slept at least two minutes in each lesson today. heh. cant help it lah. (x I wasnt paying any attention at all at during that cle talk thing. haha I was sleeping! wuhu me. heehee. ah who gives a damn anyways. WOOSH. random.

WILL FRIDAY PLEASE COME FASTER FASTER. ): IN LIKE TWO SECS CAN. >.< I dont care if its swim carn on friday please. anything's better than this week. I dont even wanna know my bio marks. Why is that when I sit at home and mug, it goes into my stupid brain but then when I sit on my chair in class it goes blanK! WTH.

eeyer tmr malay. then still must do that stupid angklung dono what thing. ARGH. doesnt TESTS mean anything to them! =x f_.

maybe I shall play truant. >.< hahh aiya why is school so hate-able! okay that's nothing new. shutup. I just feel like groaning and moaning and whining and shit. foof.

OH SHIT my piano teacher's HERE! darn! ): byee.

2006-03-07T04:48:00.000-08:00

RARH.

my dad is eeeeeeevillllllll.

=x

):

2006-03-06T04:30:00.000-08:00

HELLOOOO(:

I've been happy the whole day! and I dont even know why! haha this is true kay. I seriously have no idea why I'm so happy. I was practically bouncing ard everywhere. Okay no haha but you get the idea. xD

rarh but why is it that when I'm happy the whole world is down! and when I'm down, the whole world is happy. am I really weird, or is the world really weird? or is it both! or am I just terribly UNIQUE! haha. xD

bio! SHIT bio! ohno. eh inet is damn SLOW you know. sighs. how to finish everything in time to watch dia!!! Cannot one right. duhh! haiyohs. :/ you already know how many dia episodes I've missed. I want to see if irfan is gonna get arrested or not! Some stupid bitch colleague of his set him up after she was blackmailed. Ishk. I watched the last episode though. hee.

still have to do malay and check my email for the rs proposal. wuhu man. lerr. Oh I don't know if anyone's gone to cut and paste into the template or not. I should just do it right. So I'll have my own copy and just in case. haha. okay. I shall do it.

did I tell you I saw a CROSS-DRESSER! AT IMM! hahaaa oh my GOD so hiLArioussss! HAIYOH. he looked like some apek kopitiam or something. but the diff is that he had a buzz cut and a goatee and a misai and he still had the CHEEK to go and wear hot pink high heels!! haha loserrr! plus a pink and white stripey tight blouse and red (like my jacket kinda red) skirt. and red handbag! HAHA doOd. seriously! LOL. there was a point in time that he was walking right behind me and I was trying really hard not to look so I looked at the people going down the travelator and pretended to be so interested in one lone ah ma being pushed aside by some stupid ass. but I guess it was damn obvious because he walked away at once. haha. or maybe he just felt like it. I DON'T KNOW. haha my dad says it's a gotcha gag!

RARH what an idiottt! ohMAN I miss him! like SHIT i do. fishnuts. rarh. if you dont already know who "him" is. -.-" thanks to SOME PEOPLE lah walao I think all the smart people who bother enough in the world know already right! ahhh. ):

you know what. I'm not emphatic. I laugh when people get hurt. at the wrong times too sometimes. sigh. but I dont MEAN it. I'm sorry): I'm not mean! I just think everything's a joke. which it isn't of course. but ah! why is this so confusing. advance apologies to everyone okay. >.<

okay I have to go and eat my dinner. bye(:

2006-03-04T20:31:00.000-08:00

MOVE YER BLOOMIN ARSE(:

okay no obviously I didnt mean that I just wanted to SAY it :D

hm. so what happened ydae. o.O wait. lemme rmb. (x ohkk. reached school at 615! haha so FUN! (: -.-" uh-hum. then pushed kulintangs to amphi and reported to kschee, where kak faridah made us play with imaginary kulintangs just to simulate the actual perf. haha persajer jer tau. and then we got called to the canteen to wait for our turn to perform. yup. basically we stoned and talked lah. I fell asleep. heh. okay so then finally THE TIME CAME. spasticity. we were damn fast lorrh. haha but maybe no one noticed because they dont know the actual pace of the song. right! wahahs whatever I hope so anyways. o.O >.< (x yup then for finale we went out and stoned while the cake was being cut. yea. then sang dedication and CHEERED! in sepatus! I mean in sandals! on the amphi floor! WAH clackclackclack tak bising terus. xD

and THEN. taklimat kiq thing. I'm in av! wuhu! super slack ahah. but I'm clueless abt av. kak seleena says I shall be her predecessor. >.< okayy. haha. anyways I contributed to a group name! haha how you say. by just being random! xD we just went ard the grp and each person said a grp name. and I said mountain. bcoz it was the first thing that came to mind since I was singing aint no mountain high enough. xD and then the convo started to veer towards brokeback mountain. and so the group name "patung" was borne-eth (o.O) from kak liyana and kak syima. haha PAtah TUlang gunUNG = patung! (BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN!) haha okay I'm so excited and I'm not even in the grp. wth. LOLLL..

I had to leave early coz of french class. yupyup. I was on time thankfully. heh. coz I left late. but owells who cares the lesson started half and hour late. >.< then the class is hiLArious haha. But the only people who are my age are hollie (who just migrated fr england =o), gina (this korean girl who's studying here or sth) and robert john (saskatchewan, canada) yupyup. oh and dominic meerebus or sth. okay la his name isnt meerebus. just that I can't pronounce it. it sounds like meerebus tho. heh. I guess he was born here or sth. coz he's angmoh but has a sporean accent ready.

okay so then ate at prata cafe opp ccab. I fell asleep there. the mama had to wake me up when my tosai came. >.< haha but I didnt sleep in the car tho. yup and then went home. and out again to pick ibu up coz she went to work aft that. and then at night picked up my grandma fr pasir ris coz she wants to visit my new nephew! haha. cousin's baby daughter. yup and now my parents are OUT sending her to my aunt's house and my bro has to go theory class. yup.

sigh my parents sound so much like chauffeurs no? haha. I never realized it but yea. o.o and I should do lit. BYE!

2006-03-03T01:25:00.000-08:00

whlauehy. tmr founder's day! ): have to report to sch at like 630 can. Sh*t. Lerr. But actually I think it's quite unreasonable of them to do it. I mean whenever they ask us to come down early we just end up sitting around stoning. o.O ishk. then got kiq meeting. (: then I'm going out with my parents somewhere.

you know TRIGO right! >.<>.< but STILL. heh.

I have nothing to blog about actually. Just that I just finished playing gta3 (hee) so I decided to blog too. ya lorr so here I am.

EH I want to cut my hair. Mum says I can if I save up on my own. I think. Well she seemed to be implying that anyways. o.O where should I do it? xD that sounds horribly wrong. >.< I shall answer my own question. SEX IN THE ZOO DIRECTLY BEHIND THE MONKEYS. (((:

OOHH ami! interestingggg. david radford looked crushed. not crush-ed. but CRUSHED. DEVASTATED. DISAPPOINTED. that the judges had such bad comments on his perf. haha. owell too bad for him. then will makar! Ya lorr he's too average leh. ): I wish he'd be a bit more like sticking out like a sore thumb. but in a positive way. >.< gideon! HAIYOOO. HOW CAN YOU NOT LAUGH WHEN YOU LOOK AT HIM. HAHA SOMEHOW I CAN'T NOT LAUGH. xD what a zany grin(: gideon, I mean. not the *xD* -.-" who else? ace! ala wrong choice of song lah. ): but nice song anws. the last guy. the married guy with evidently popular kids. he was good too right! I LOVE THE SONG. (: I don't love him tho. he's like...botak teh la. elliot yamin is good too. just that his face doesnt match the voice and the height. heh. wouldn't it be so so so hot if ace actually had elliot's voice! haha possible sungguh. but nevermind say onli lah cannot MEH. whlauehy.

which reminds me. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAPAK! YAY WE'RE GOING OUT TO SWENSEN'S to celebrate duh WHOO YAY LALA BYE. he's so gonna read this, but that's okay. it's the THOUGHT *pause for effect* that counts.

...

whatever. BYE!

2006-03-01T00:34:00.000-08:00

RARH. I feel BUMMED. :/ I don't know why. Well kinda. I KNOW why. kinda. you see. haiyo. apada.

copycat! whlauehy. no SENSE of originality one. ishkishk. it's VERY BAD you know. tsktsk. >.< dx haha I'm sure you not weirded out. I'm being spazzzz. spas? spaz. ZzZzZz. spasm. spazm. doesnt that mean sudden twitches or sth. WAIT. WHY AM I EVEN CARING. -.-"

my mum has this weirdweird friend who says that she wants to Zz when she wants to sleep. As in. Pronounciation is "zeezee". HAHA FUNNY RIGHT! FUNNY AH. (x I zeezee-ed in the bus home. And I kinda missed my stop. By like 3 stops. Heh. >.< BUT thank GOD I'm like, STREET SMART! xDDD LOL. I just walked home lah. and dropped by kfc to buy zinger. and yes, that means I ponned founder's day tech rehearsal. Actually, I couldn't care less. -.-

bio was actually FUN you know! haha. I mean instead of just listening to mrs prama in class like that. I could like fall asleep. Okay maybe not but you get the idea. (: benedictbenedictbenedictbenedict! sorry random. I mean, BENEDICT'S SOLUTION. benedict as a noun has this nerdy connotation. "Benedict", and poof you see this.........NERD. I don't quite know how to describe him. short navy blue shorts? HAHA. thick black glasses! HEAVILY GELLED HAIR. Permanent nerdy look asfixiated onto face. ACTUALLY. I don't really know if asfixiBLABLA is the right word. I just feel CHIEM! haha.

pygmalion! I havent read it yet. heh. heh. not gonna read it any time soon I guess. well at least not in the next few days. I mean there's like history sa tmr! WANT TO DIE AH. ISHK. I don't wanna get 4 or 5. RARRHHH.

but JUST when you think you've forgotten, some idiot comes along almost PURPOSEFULLY to remind you again. AHH. why? I kinda just shovelled all my thoughts to one side of my brain. and then to see this one idiot only sort of pushes it right back where it was. sort of. figuratively speaking. o.O I shall BURST you know. sigh.

oh I bumped into rozaini on the way home. hah LOSER! madrasah lah. halamakk. bloody hell. every week he will somehow find someway to go and publicly announce my presence to the rest of the whole wide world. BODOH. HUMPH. -stickouttongue-

I SHALL PASS HISTORY. I SHALL PASS HISTORY. I SHALL PASS HISTORY. NO WAIT. I WILL PASS HISTORY. I WILL PASS HISTORY. I WILL PASS HISTORY. Oh my f***in toot I AIN'T GONNA FAIL I SWEAR! RARHHH. >.<

2006-02-27T07:55:00.000-08:00

HELUHELUHELU(: saper di sana. aku di sini. I feel like a dj........hehe. ryan seacrest's female counterpart. >.< lol. whatever.

watched DIA. Aiyo fifi is such a bitch la. ishkishk. TERUKnyer. Then susi is chio. Eka is guai again. Dwi is cry-able again. ANDI IS EVIL. Irfan...has slimmed down?? Dia...pushed FIFI! :DD But yknow in real life I think the Fifi woman is smart. Coz she's goin overseas to study. But right. People always throw stuff at her in the streets! Apparently. HAIIYYOOOO. TAK CHILDISH TERUS KAN. IT'S JUST A BLOODY DRAMA. LIKE, HELUUUU? O.O
makesense? *nodnod*

my egyptian guide last time used to love saying makesense? or I believe ... and it was really fun coz he had this thick egyptian accent. My dad and me used to try and imitate him behind his back. >.< Poor guy. He was so plump and bubbly. That kinda person, yknow. haha. okay. EH I miss the CRUISE LORR. I miss being up on the SUNDECK at night and sitting at the front of the cruise and looking up and seeing the stars (kinda) and feeling the wind against my face. And lying on the deckchairs at night and just closing my eyes. It's really relaxing. OH and watching that old man with the wrinkled-like-a-prune skin going in and out of the bloody swimming pool even when it was SUPER FREEZING cold at night. WTH. Haha. He seemed SO FRAIL with his towel around him wearing nothing but swimming briefs. LOL. Amusing kay. Malam2 buta pun naikkk jugak nak swimming mcm tak pernah nampak swimming pool gitu. He was an ang moh la. Haha. Duh, only ANG MOHS do this kinda stuff. Kalau singaporean...haishxXxX...jgn harap lah...lagi baik masok bilik nak landing dulu...dx

eh you know maybe I shouldn't drink teh tarik in the mornings anymore. Coz right. I've been drinking teh tarik for breakfast every day. Since the dawn of time. Heh. And everytime I came to school I always wondered why I was having this slighttt stomach ache. But I didn't take any notice la. Until that time when everyone went to support the badminton thing then my stomache pain like hell. Hee. SO. Maybe I should repent and start drinking Milo. OH WAIT. MILO IS UNHEALTHY TOO. APPARENTLY. -.-" *hint. ora...whispers*

the whole WORLD is down please. YO everyone. CHEER UP(: A SMILE would actually do loads for your mood. Really! Trust me. I've been emo before remember? HAHA. And you know it actually hurts when you try and smile after having the longest ever face for the longest ever time. Haha. BESIDES. Don't worry (too much), be happyyy(: because it's nice to be surrounded by happy2 friends and BE a happy2 friend and it sucks to know that you're the only one with a long face among a sea of cheery people. DON'T BE EMO okay. EMOs are unrefined and unprofessional. Haha RIGHT. Whatever.

ARG! 11:48! I havent prayed! SHUCKS. BYE(:

2006-02-25T06:03:00.000-08:00

HELLO.

at my nenek's hse! ((: actually everyone's going home soon. takper la.

I wanna cut my hair! ))): Erh haha not as if you don't know ready right. >.< Haha. Anw. I might be going with my cousin. She wants me to write her name here la. HAIYO. Her name is MARIA HANI BTE HASSAN. Hehe. See I remembered her full name! haha. and YES, obviously if I'm at my nenek's hse then she's right beside me WHAT. haha. (:

I'ma genie in a bottle! (x okay my cousin just gave me this o.O kinda look. To be expected lah. HAAHA DUH. She said: Siak ah.

I was out the whole day today please! haha. I woke up late >.<>.< then all the angklung people stoned at the amphi while they went through all the other perfs. I hope we gonna do just fineee. (: To tell you the truth, I think we sound DAMN asthmatic. But I dunno lah all these people. That romanza concert ah. We SUCKED. Totally. my cousin just said: sucked? kau hisap aper? ... ohmygod! Siol. *squeals* haha I'm not saying anything. OKAY anw. We sucked! But everyone was like saying how good we were! haha. Seriously, me and kak nar and anna and all the kuls basically made a truckload of mistakes sia.

then lunched at bk far east with kak seleena peixuan. I just ate sundae pie la coz I had to go early. So yea then I went home. Then my dad came home from work (!) soon after. Then he sent me and my bro to music class at sembawang. And ya the piano is damn dusty ready la got cobwebs all ready >.< never practice mahhh. ((x Then went out to saf yatch club with abg ayip all. My bro is an idiot you know that! LERR. Then dinner-ed at sembawang satayyyy club. I had fish and chips! haha.

then went to my nenek's hse lorr. And bathed. I missed my late grandfather's prayer thingie. I donno what's it called in english la.

reminded of dasar dwibahasa. -.-"

kk my cousin wanna use the phone la must disconnect. BBBBBBB(:

2006-02-24T03:35:00.000-08:00

eh. bloody hell. why are some people so selfish! NEVER THINK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE ISIT. ALAMAK. wahhhh shit dude. =x

rarhhhh.

2006-02-23T06:19:00.000-08:00

AH

I'm doing cle pt now. And it's 10:17 pm. I was watching ami! haha. >.< ACE YOUNG! will makar! haha gedeon's really funny. But how come when he smiles, his eyes dont crinkle?? Dont people's eyes crinkle when they smile? RIGHTRIGHT! haha okay whatever la. And that taylor guy. The one with the grey hair. My goodness I thought he was like 58 or something la! Why does he have to have grey hair when he's only 29! Wth! o.O

OKAY. Cle pt. >.< sucky laaa. walao. cle also must have pt meh? haiyoyoiii. What only. -.- And I dont know what to write you know. haha. Want to write a speech then later it's not CURRENT and ORIGINAL (o.O) wanna write a poem...ERHHH. o.O Somehow I dont think that's gonna work out! haha. Cartoon? Wth am I gonna draw huh?

hahh okay la I'll just write an essay. A SHORT essay! haha. ohman it's gonna be so c-grade-ish. haha. >.< oh. the paper says that we're invited to to express your opinions HONESTLY! :D oh coolcoolcool! I am gonna have such FUNN! ((((x haha otayy whatever.

AH I MISS HIM. haha you care, I know. heck you lah go and die. xD OH I know who crushes him TOO! :DD HAHA omg so unexpected. LOL.

SMELLS LIKE TEEN SPIRIT! <3 OYEA! ^^

12:35 am. very good right! haha. but nemind lah I think my "speech" thinger is okay lah. Ish tiber2 jerr ngantuk. -nguaps- dalah I sleep first kae. hehe. bye! ^^

2006-02-22T04:50:00.000-08:00

yo(: what happened today? hm. sorry la abit slow. I cant think properly. spaced out. yea. that's the word. heh. :j

eng sa! haha you realize ms lim never taught us how to count the mistakes! lol. I think I found 46 or 47. Supposed to find only 45 right. haha I just hentam2 on my 3rd reading la anything that didnt sound right I just corrected. Heh. So I ended up with more. But they said that you dont get penalized for correcting mistakes which are non-existent. Get what I mean? Aiya I hope I'll do okay. hey. ask u ah. does it sound like I apply what I learnt when I blog! >.< xD haha that's dumb. okay nemind. (:

and then mass swim. lol. retarded lah walao. But I guess you cant have unretarded mass swims when you're in rg. Coz..the student population is very "diverse" all..haha...let's just say people in rg are quite resourceful..can improvise with whatever they have. >.< yay my hair is finally not retarded anymore. After I combed it. o.O hEHE.

bumped into liyana (mgs) and this other guy from my primary school. I cant remember whats his name. He's changed! haha. He used to be perpetually smiley-faced. I don't think I'm wrong if I say that he kinda looked perpetually gay, now that I think about it. Heh. Now he just looks perpetually exhausted. Haha what a drastic change. >.< smiley="gay----">partial emo LOL. okay nemind. haha.

(liyana) is in nj! haha ohman. I didnt know. and apparently we look alike. haha. I dunno lah. According to my cikgu linda yupp. Or was it some other teacher. Seriously. I don't remember! haha.

mgs. I'm reminded of azizah. and how we were about to become like really close friends or something (which is quite crucial when you're in sec1 coz you're damn super blur all) for ONE DAY. Haha YES, ONE DAY!! LOL. I think she's pretty. ^^ it's actually quite stupid. I only went to mgs for one day. I guess I got a last-minute place at rg. Heh. While everyone was out there having cca orientation I was biting my nails off in the go waiting to be interviewed, and I thought I screwed up because I didnt know how to answer one of the questions and there was like a 200 hour long pause. Heh. But I didnt, coz she said she's willing to give me a place when my mum came in. My mum nearly cried lah can. Sigh. And so I was forced to make an on-the-spot decision. OF COURSE YES RIGHT. HAIYO. I'm sorry any mgs-ians reading this (if any! xD). Heh. And my mum just kept asking me over and over again if I really wanted to go anot then I was like YES ibu YES YES er yes yes yes *bored* yes.

then my dad was so pissed one time because when I went to rg to hand in my appeal essay thing I was in my bp sch u. And then there was this cna reporter there and she was like talking duh. haha. so he didnt want to pass behind her because of the camera. Then the camera turned away. So my mum was like okayokay let's go quicklyquickly before he turns again. And then JUST as we were walking up the steps he turned. And so that night I saw myself appear on national tv. sigh. looking unbelievably nerdy. Haha. Hey I didnt even KNOW that you could actually NOT put your belt through the loophole thing. HAHH. LOSER-ified-ity(?) wth. Haha nemind. and to think my form teacher had just advised me not to appeal. why because she didnt think I could handle the competition the stress the pressure the homework ala blabla la. HMPHHH. Why was I not put off by that? o.O probably because I didnt think I deserved a place in rg. BUT right. I'm in rg now. And right. I might have screwed up horribly in lower sec. But I promise I'll show her how wrong she was okay. It's never too late to change right. Like mrs ng (2/5 eng teacher last year) said I cant wait until jc to change. How the hell am I even gonna pass my alevels like this. HAIYOOOO. >.< THIS time it's for real. I swear man. I've done it once before I can do it again. *nodnod*

(:

2006-02-21T08:02:00.000-08:00

it's bad enough that you did what you did to me.

must you do it to my friends too?

what the hell did she ever do to you? nothing, I remind you.

I dont give a damn about whatever you have to say for yourself. dont you get it. The damage is done. Thank god is wasnt any later. Im never goin back. and what makes you think I will if you do what you said you would. I dont care. As long as you dont involve anyone who never played a single part in it all. this isnt her fault. she didnt do anything. its you whos to blame. so why the heck must you say all those things to her just because she's like that? that's just who she is, dont you get it. no matter how different she is from last time. who are you to just go and badmouth her right in front of her face. at least she isnt a fake.

damn it. you could at least try and understand.

2006-02-21T03:38:00.000-08:00

eyy? weird weird ah. the modem isnt on but there's still internet connection. o.O THAT isn't supposed to happen =o

I want to be a social worker! :D And I'm not kidding ard this time. Osl. I want to go! Was the deadline to sign up extended or sth? Coz I want to go! ):

bio how to do uh? o.O I dunno how to do): howww? *cries* haha despo? xD eng must mug..

I miss mcr): as if I actually know them by person uh >.<

I miss him too. ughh. ):

four sad smileys so far. mood lift! ahahh what shall I dooo?

2006-02-20T05:46:00.000-08:00

SS is SO SIAN. ):

I shall help myself from falling asleep. You know I could be watching DIA right now. Sighs. Aiya I've missed so many episodes ready actually. I don't care lah. The show's getting QUITE long-winded. >.< I can't stand the scandal-ness. Haha I can, actually. Just that I'm trying to convince myself that I can't stand DIA therefore I don't need to watch therefore I can do MORE PRODUCTIVE things. LOL.

anw. I feel like writing a wishlist. let me proceed, will you? (:

- get a new pencilbox from blue21
- mug eng! hist! SS! bio! malay(?)
- eat as many 6pc chicken mcnuggets as I can afford
- anatolia! beef doner! dx
- oreo cheesecake!
- haircut? haha. mum lets me. I just have to convince kak nur to come with me >.< haha SOON.

now how do I strikeout...>.< -.-" xD

haha I just chatted with my trib junior. One of them anws. Though I dont know her face. Hee. Anw yea. She crushes her psl. LOL. I wonder who. dx xD >.<>

does anyone think that lindsay lohan sounds KINDA like a guy? KINDA, mind you. Don't pounce on me. KINDa. Lol. ahh wth she's so pretty I love her anyways-- fat skinny tall short lesbian she's still really cool. I LIKE the confessions of a broken heart vid. Haha nice kay. I like her. Poor thing ah she. Got bulimia all..ishish.

ashlee simpson sounds like a guy too...but I dont like her. She's yuekh but her songs are nice(: haha.

AIYOOO. SENSITIVE NYERRR. APASALL?? CKP NGAN KAU SUSAH SEH. Nanti tersinggung pulak..dahh tnk kwn...aku tnk terjadik pulak): isk >.<>

yennadey. bored la dey. macam mana la deyy? haha. kk. I nk TIDO. BYEE(:

2006-02-18T23:34:00.000-08:00

home ALONE, baby. WOOHOO(x

madrasahhh. in the auditorium. stone-ifying. >.< but fun nonetheless. because of idiot zul all. haha nah kidding. its kinda sad that fidy and me are the only two girls in our class): haha she keeps bugging me to tell her if I want to skip. lol. I wish diyanah (greenridge) was in our class.

math tmr. sigh): I still gotta work on my partial fractions. kinda still sucks. modulus functions is quite easy actually dx (shutUP) and algebraic manipulations I need to work on. (".)

ooh marion raven rocks. hahh shut up I'm not outdated! (x I alrd knew that long time ago. Just that no one seemed to think that marion raven rocked too. So I shutted up! haha shutted up..whatever. bet you never thought that I could break youuuuuuu did you think that I would look the other wayyyyyy yeah you had it all figured out but tell me whos the one whos crying nowwwww((((x

kk. I must go. bye.

2006-02-18T04:44:00.000-08:00

oei! ask u sth ah. WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE SO SHAMELESS. aiyo. then if they're shameless abt the other sex not so bad lah but then this one ah walao lesbian also shameless! wth? haha. okay obviously I cant be talking about anyone other than someone who's either sec1 or 2. You can't be lesbian when you reach sec3 what. Or something must be wrong with you. >.<

it's really amusing okay. haha. you see their msn nicks and they're screaming that some person hugged them or something. then you nearly puke but then it's quite amusing too because your second reaction will be like huh?! OMG SHE CRUSHES ___. Haha. go figure. who are sec1s and 2s most likely to fall for? xD *rofl* I didn't say it. and besides. I said most likely. haha. actually it's quite the same right but wth nvm. xD I DONT CARE if she reads this. I stopped caring a long time ago. *wah emo seh..*

anatolia! whoo! at far east. went with zaf amira diyanah syahidah kak seleena after school. yay! kak seleena ordered two LLAMA-CUNs (!) okay haha. one beef one chicken. haha I forgot why though. heh. >.<

yay! My dad just bought prince of persia: two thrones for the ps2! haha okay. I'm no gaming nerd. I just really like prince of persia! haha RIGHTO okay whatever man. LOL. xD and you know what gta3 RULES! have I said that before? owell I'll say it again! >.< it RULES. I love the fact that you can carjack someone in broad daylight if there aren't any policemen looking. and you can't be dumb enough to go and carjack right in front of the police station. and being a runaway stooge is fun! LOL.

urgh I'm SICK of EGGS! >.< aiyo. I'm eating maggi mi now and my maid gave one huge egg. AHH I'm so sick. It's so withered-looking now. o.O all the soup soaked in ready I guess.

2006-02-16T02:46:00.000-08:00

haha you know what!

I've been singing wordplay all over school. but I cant find the mp3): kental kan. So I'm doing the next best thing. Haha I'm recording! It's on windows media player, but all the files cant download. Like cant click save media. Kental kan! HAIYO.

happyhappyhappyyyyy((((x I cant begin to tell you how I happy I am okay. >.< haha it's true! okay 99.9% true. and actually I don't know why. haha. dx

alamakkk tmr sli lerr. hope it rains! >.< hahh then we can stone in class. (:

theREDthing. haha. okay nemind that was random. it was sth si ning said in class about this poem called telephone conversation. >.<

hmk:
- hist essay
- malay introductions
- bio notes
- cle

laaalaaalalaLOVE. ((x

i dont mean to hurt you. coz if I did I'm sorry. but I dont think I did. you have to know. I cant keep thinking of you and only you. coz if I keep doing this nothing good's gonna come out of it. and maybe next time everything will come rushing back. but not now. youre the last thing I want to think about now. but if things ever pick up. we'll see. I'm not forgetting you. how can i. I promise I wont forget you. I just cant afford to let you run my life for me.

2006-02-15T03:57:00.000-08:00

booo.

omgosh do you know how much jason mraz rocks!! haha! when did he debut uh? hahaa I have no idea. he's so cute! just listen to the lyrics! so cute la walao! >.< laalaalalaLOVE! (: kanye west is really weird you know. his songs can make me fall asleep, but apparently people like him. hm. weird. o.O and did you see the ashlee simpson video? the l.o.v.e one. catchy song. but I hate the vid! its raunchy. and. dirty and stuff. yuckkk.

today lots of spastic things happened! haha. I seem to be picking fights with everyone! lol. first flora, now has. tsktsk. ((x fights are fun! believe me(;

scary you know. SAs all coming up. I must steel myself! *looks motivated* haha I can so do that. dx

kk it's like 4:30 am. Actually no. It's only 11:03. But yea 4:30 is the latest I slept doing that darned hist pt. Urgh. And back in primary school I thought sleeping at 11:40 was damn teruk ready la. aiyo.

MAT[h]S!

2006-02-14T04:22:00.000-08:00

oei listen! oh. dont listen if you dont like ego people! (x

the title was inspired by yi yun. who was so lethargic she wrote mats instead of maths. bigbig at the top. haha! lol. and she called mary big-eyed ____(cantrmb) woman! lol. like out of the b-LoO.

okay anyway. YEA. I just realized. *dumdumdum* my maths rocks! haha. True kay! :D I got like 14/24 for the first fa which isnt much really but yea mrs leuar said less than half the class passed! (x Then assignment 2 I got like 7/9. WHOOO! And mrs leuar said in general the class wasnt quite good. I'm sorry 312. But YAY I got nice marks! haha. and then tdae's formative. I was gonna give up on the last question. then I got it. and I hope I get full marks! Haha. and I helped yu xin do the first question! woohoo! and she was like oyeaaa and I'm like whooo I'm smart yea babyyy.

HEE. HEE. it's not every day I get my ego blown up like this okay. haha. maths just has that effect on me. >.< ya right man. LOL.

oh and I'm sorry about the drastic mood swing. I know I just blogged two seconds ago. Okay more like 2 hours? o.O dunno. but I just needed to say that. HAHA.

it isn't GOOD to be emo, yknow. *big-eyed look* your mouth becomes really small because you sulk all the time and you rarely talk and move your jaw so when you wanna move it it hurts why because lah. it just feels like rusty metal which has gone unoiled for thousands of years. uh? maybe not. but yea you get the point. ^^

flora and me are emo! hehe. I tell you we can SO pass off as two emos ah, really. lol. picture bugs bunny. *whatsup, doc?* then picture emo. *omg I hate my life shit my life sucks I wanna kill myself* do they go together? NOOOOOO. can you IMAGINE bugs bunny wearing black all the time?! bugs bunny can never be goth okay. NONO. baddd.

okay, okay, dont twist yer knickers dx I'm awayyy bye! I must mug. for? hist. ss):. bio?. hm no bio I dont know what to mug. aiya susah2 hist je lahh. hist byk giler perr. kla bb! (x

2006-02-14T03:15:00.000-08:00

so. vday. uh. joy to the world. woohoo. romance rocks. hm ya okay.

why does love rock but then suck at the same time? shit. it's such a trashy feeling. =x and yknow, maybe I shouldnt ask such unanswerable questions. o.O

sch sucks la. haiyo. I'm in a trashy mood myself, so sorry la hor. :/

I need a catchy song! ): I've been listening to avril lavigne. o.O Oh ya mcr! Oho. Okay.

I havent watched mtv in a billion years! The last time I watched mtv was like two weeks ago. I swear! That's like a record for me to be not having my daily mtv dosage. Huh? Okay, what the ever. dx

then um? oh. WALAO. so unfair! everyone's seeing that person everywhere! everyone but me! kental ah. apasal seh. bacin dong.

oh in malay just now. we watched the video rakaman of the bahas thing. AIYO mamii. why so spas?! o.O yknow, it's funny that we know all the reasons why or why not dasar dwibahasa will work out. But then we dont care. haha, I mean look at this blog thing right now. How many times have I not used bahasa rancu? 0.sth times right. okay thats impossible fine but you get the point right. ala duh. I'm sorry lerr.

oh and that song! the song that was playing over the pa at school in the morning. So opera tak menjadi! o.O Apebende sehy. Some opera-sounding woman was singing you raise me up and the accompanying was like...pop? Tak kena terus siol. -.-

oyea I had tribune. hms yup. someone said I look smart. HAHHH thankyou uhh but haha NO. lol. wth ah can. haiyo. and what the sch do to all the comps in the raffles room? they all disappeared k. we had to go borrow ibooks fr the library. Which are...not dysfunctional. Just hard to use. Since they were imacs. I want pcs. ):

haha I'm pining about not having pcs at school? I think I have the most interesting life ever la. Haha. SO interesting that...my mum just shooed me off the comp. -.- forcefully some more. nk mampos. me, not her.

before she blows her top. i run away. bye.

2006-02-12T05:53:00.000-08:00

YAYAYAYAYAY

haha actually the reason why I'm so happy is because of something that happened at madrasah. haha. and that was damn long ago. lol. but I'm like..lost in the reverie of the moment? Hurm. Whatever! >.<

alamak friendster damn slow larh. Howww to write testys? lol. Oh have I told you about this thing called STANDARD TESTY LENGTH! Haha. Do you get the alternate meaning. -.- testy. pun. register? hurm. okay haha I'm weird nevermind.

I mixed up my letters lah. I forgot which of my mortals wrote to me about what. And then I just found out that I wrote to munya wrongly. Heh. Heh. I told her something she didnt ask about. haha.

okayyy whats with the secrecy? I hereby proclaim I dont have secrets to hide. Well maybe one or two. Two lah kay. But I bet you'd rather go and play golf or something rather than listen. Besides its a secret. You not my friend, I don't tell you ahhh. *stickouttoungue*

I'm not usually this weird. I don't know why I'm so weird tonight. I keep thinking I have some more homework to do. I havent checked my diary thing. And I don't plan to until after I'm done slacking some more! ^^ such guai-ity. I invented a word! ((:

and did you hear about the american teen who murdered her mum. gossip so isn't me. but yeah, wth, I'm a girl. I'm excused. (:

okay my mum's shooing me. byeee!